See No Evil! Hear No Evil! Speak Evil?

So this is what I get to see and listen to. A list of the TV stations we get and the FM radio stations I have as presets. There are more stations, but I don't want to listen to religious and spanish networks. Of course I don't want to listen to most of them anyway, but its better than nothing. The TV listing is devoid of 1 key network, yes, you guessed it Sci-Fi. Thank goodness for BitTorrent. Anyway, just thought you'd like to know. I put the channels in that order, or technically the tv did, that is these channels are sorted by where they show up in the VHF/UHF Spectrum on a MHz of course.

TV Listings  
Channel Network
1 NBC
2 FOX
3 WVPT – PBS
4 Univision
5 CNBC
6 ESPN
7 ESPN 2
8 Bloomberg
9 UPN
10 MHz
11 MPT – PBS
12 ABC
13 WB
14 CBS
15 MHz2
16 Telefutura
17 CNN
18 Fox News
19 C-Span
20 C-Span 2
21 Headline News
22 WETA – PBS
23 TBS
24 The Weather Channel
25 TNT
26 USA
27 MSNBC
28 WHUT – PBS
29 ABC Family
30 AMC
31 Animal Planet
32 Discovery Channel
33 TLC
34 Comedy Central
35 Lifetime
36 MTV 2
37 VH1
38 Nick
39 E!
40 A&E
41 History Channel
42 Bravo
43 Cartoon Network
44 HGTV
Radio Listings (ALL FM)
Preset Frequency  Format               
1 94.7  Classic Rock         
2 100.3  Classic Hits         
3 99.5  Top-40
4 101.1  Rock
5 104.1  Classical            
6 89.3  Jazz
7 96.3         Urban Contemporary
8 97.1         Adult Contemporary
9 98.7  Country
10 101.5  Hot AC
11 102.3         Urban Contemporary 
12 103.5  News
13 107.3  Hot AC
14 88.5  Public Radio
15 89.9         Christian Contemporary
16 90.1  Public Radio 
17 90.9  Public Radio
18 91.9         Christian Contemporary
19 92.5  Hot AC
20 93.3  Country
21 93.9  Hip Hop
22 95.5  Hip Hop
23 95.9  Oldies          
24 97.9  Rock
25 107.7  News/Talk
26 98.3  Classic Rock
27 101.9         Adult Contemporary
28 102.7   Adult Hits
29 91.5  Classical
30 106.7  Talk

Friday TV Corner Episode 1

Okay, so in doing this weekly daily post thing. Fridays I am talking about Television. Something I watch too much of. So here are just a few of my thoughts.

That 70s Show is over. Oh well. It kind of sucked that last season anyway.
Alias is also over. Same really. However I am glad that there was closure with all that stuff.
NCIS, Gibbs left, what the hell. That is so, well it just sucks. I hope it makes it next season.
CSI, WOW, that one threw me off gaurd, anyone else? Grissom and Sara? An item? Well there goes any thought of reason I would've had. Well whatever works for CBS I guess.
Lets see what else.
Oh on Grey's Anatomy Izzy apperantly left after the whole heart guy deal. Oh well, no big loss.
Boston Legal was humorous in its ending. That is all I can say about that.
Lost, now that was, well lets just say very good. I can't wait for next season. I don't want to spoil that for people who didn't see.
The Unit, seems to have ended its season, which is okay, its a good show and I hope to see it come back.
I am a little sad at the apperant cancellation of Heist. I was looking forward to that NBC show.
This summer I am looking forward to the 4400, the Closer, the Sci-Fi shows of course.
All should be good.

New Course

I am considering this. And sure it sounds pointless since no one reads the blog anyway, but doing segments, if you willon certain days of the week, along with the regular B.S. Now I haven't figured out what I'd do yet, but like once a week, every day having a different topic, I'd talk about one thing. Either Complaining or joking, etc., And like I said, the Usual B.S. would be there too. Well I want to know what you think. Not really. But tell me anyway.

Post 300

This is the 300th Post to this crappy blog.

Wow...I've lasted this long and I still get an occasional reader.

Of course, that isn't really what this post is about at all.

I guess mainly what I want to say is that I am in love with the most beautiful, funny, charming, witty, charismatic, cheerful, pleasant, lovely, wonderful, attractive, amazing, fantastic girl in all the world. And if you disagree with me, tough because it is true.

I would do anything for her and I love her more than one can properly write in words. She is the one thing that gives my life meaning. She is the one person that makes me truly happy.

However, at the same time I am making her miserable, I know this, even though she may not come right out and say it, but it is true. I am so far away from her right now and it kills me, I want to be there every night and make sure she is able to fall asleep and I want to be there every day to make sure she is protected from whatever danger she may come into contact with, but I can't. I feel as though I am betraying her in a way, and that is the last thing I want to do. Of course, I don't know if she thinks that, I doubt it, but I could be wrong.

I find myself almost at tears writing this, because I feel like a lousy boyfriend and even lousier friend. Just leaving and pretending that is okay. I am torn.

I want to do something to make up for what I have done, but at the same time, I don't know what I could do to make up for putting someone through pain grief and turmoil. I feel so bad about myself. I just I don't know what to do.

I have a hard time visualizing things so I can't really imagine what it is exactly she is going through even though we talk all the time on the phone. Send text messages and emails. IM each other like crazy. Of course it still doesn't make up for the fact that we are so far apart. So I just can't imagine what it is she is really going through. I mean even if she tells me, I still can't imagine, because I just can't visualize it. I seem to be incapable of visualizing pain, or feelings of discomfort if you will. I think empathy is the term, I lack the ability to feel what others are feeling and when I do, it is still somehow wrong.

I just wish that I had never left to begin with. Sure my family is great, but can love compare to family. And sure you can say that there is some sort of love associated with family or some crap like that, but I just lost my train of that. What I am trying to say is I'd much rather be with her, right now.

I love you Chelsea.

Okay you lame ass slackers...

Yes you, with your names to the right...

Start contributing damnit.

That is why you are contributors.

'nuff said.

=Ben=

1 month, 25 days, 23 hours

Time Until I see my love again: 56 days, 23 hour

Time I can't wait: -13 days.

Waiting Sucks. Time Sucks. Seperation Sucks.

-B-

Ground Control To Major Tom

Here am I floating round my tin can
Far above the moon
Planet earth is blue
And there's nothing I can do.

Ground control to Major Tom
Your circuit's dead, there's something wrong
Can you hear me, Major Tom?
Can you hear me, Major Tom?
Can you hear me, Major Tom?
Can you....

far beneath the ship
the world is mourning
they don't realize
he's alive
no one understands
but Major Tom sees
now the Light commands
this is my home
I'm coming home

I've heard a rumour from Ground Control
Oh no, don't say it's true

They got a message from the Action Man
"I'm happy, hope you're happy too
I've loved all I've needed to love
Sordid details following"
...

Ashes to ashes, funk to funky
We know Major Tom's a junkie
Strung out in heaven's high
Hitting an all-time low

This was hidden inside the ventilation shaft,
Day No. 33, Captain's Log 445A,
And it seems the captain and its crew are on its last legs,
All this culture clash is getting to me now,
Am I the last one up above in the place?
Tell my wife and kids I love them very much I know,
Ground control to Major Tom