An important thing to remember is making time for your family. You are only on the earth for a short while and you need to spend as much of it as you can with family. There is nothing more important than family.
Sunday, July 31, 2011
I have found that water is very important to curbing my hunger. I have been drinking between 8 and 10 cups when bottled spring water is available. I don't care for tap water, so when that is all we have I tend to drink less. Starting this week I plan on really forcing myself to walk and drinking water will be key to me being able to do that. Especially in this weather, when it is supposed to be over 100 every day.
Well, the first in a small series of hurdles has been jumped over, so to speak. This morning my starting weight was 329.0 pounds. I am pretty sure since I broke 330 around February of this year I haven't seen a 32# pound number. Now next goal is to break 320 and so forth until I reach 250 which I don't have planned to do until well into next year. This is the first little reward and motivator for me to keep going and I certainly will. I think it may be time to be more conscious about exercise and really make sure I get a mile in and I suppose I need to sit around the house less, which means fewer hours watching TV.
Saturday, July 30, 2011
I also got a haircut today. It feels so nice to not have to deal with hair and I personally think it might help me with my weight loss, slightly, but every ounce counts when you're trying to lose weight. Didn't get around to yard work today, it was too hot and I woke up too late. Maybe tomorrow I can get some of it done. I did clean house today. So, that's something I suppose. Being sunburnt seems to make you want to not do anything - or so I have found. Who knows.
Friday, July 29, 2011
So, today was a bad day. I have surpassed 2000 calories and have not even eaten dinner. Although I am not necessarily hungry. The main culprit was soda. I probably had the equivalent of a 2L of coke or more. Plus I had fries, part of a cheese burger and a funnel cake. In case you are wondering I had the day off today and originally planned on helping Chelsea clean out her class room, but she finished yesterday and since I had already taken the day off we went to Six Flags Hurricane Harbor in Arlington. I should mention I did try to be good by eating a grilled chicken salad, but I did have thousand Island dressing. Not to mention I ate some of Chelsea's fries, part of her Cheeseburger, and part of her funnel cake. Not to mention I made use of my free refills from my souvenir sports cup, sure I could've gotten a diet coke or something else, but I really felt like coca cola. I do think however all the water play must have burned a few of those calories. If I do eat dinner I will try to keep it small and healthy and make up for it this weekend, trying to stay as close to 1500 calories as possible and doing some yard work. Of course there will also be some cleaning up that also comes with the weekend.
Thursday, July 28, 2011
First I want to say I had two eggs, scrambled for breakfast. They were delicious with a cup of orange juice. Now for dinner we had soft Tacos with chicken and rice. This is a pretty good diet food, if you take it easy or skip the extras all together and have only a little rice. In addition I found some low carb, low fat flour Tortillas which were also surprisingly good for you, compared to the others. Not to mention the fact that they were high in fiber. I enjoyed three plus a cup of rice. Plus I might add without a side of guilt. We'll see what tomorrow and the weekend has in store...
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
I did a bad thing and went back for seconds. I hit 2000 calories today, almost 2100 to be honest. Now I feel bad. I wasn't trying to, but my hunger got the better of me. It was not even that good of a dinner, just spaghetti with meat sauce. I think I may need to up my water intake to offset my hunger. Well I will have to do better tomorrow. Maybe I can make up for it with some exercise tomorrow. We will see what tomorrow holds.
I am getting lunch sick maybe next week I will have more variety. I am going to try eggs for breakfast tomorrow. My hunger isn't getting any better. I don't know how long it will take until I get used to eating less. I am still trying to walk, but I don't know what else to do to exercise. It's so hot outside and not really any room inside. I don't even know any exercises, really. That just shows you how fat and out of shape I am. You know I think it is funny, looking back, that my brother used to joke that I was a shape, whenever I said I was out of shape. Brothers can be cruel. I know that I took a lot of shit my whole life for being fat. I have had enough. That is why I want to do this.
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
Today was better, I had a peanut butter sandwich for breakfast instead of oatmeal and more beans and rice for dinner. My lunch was exactly the same. I even took a short walk with Oscar this afternoon, about 1/2 mile and in this heat it was not that fun. We'll see what tomorrow has in store.
Monday, July 25, 2011
I am hungry. Breakfast and lunch seem so small. I am looking forward to dinner, but also dreading it because I know that will be it for today.
Also my coworkers are jerks. Apparently no one thinks that I can diet or will last this out. Well dammit I am going to try.
I think we're having beans for dinner. Not sure how to feel about that.
On a bright note my new clothes fit remarkably well, although I think I will wear the belt to help keep my shirt tucked in the back. I need to figure out how to be more active at work. I think I need to do more stuff outside of the office.
Sunday, July 24, 2011
So I was thinking, since I want to start off slow and walk I need to make sure that I can keep track of it. I found Endomondo Sports Tracker in the android market. It uses a gps to monitor my distance as well as a timer to see how long I have been going. I input my weight and tell it what I am doing and it even estimates the calories expended. I did a quick 1/3rd mile around my coldesac and it got it all, even with the phone in my front pocket. This will be a very useful tool.
I purchased groceries earlier this morning. I bought some oranges, bananas, apples and carrots. I plan on incorporating these items into my lunch. Most likely I will still eat a sandwich of some sort.
I also ate some oatmeal for breakfast. It is Quaker Oats High Fiber Maple and Brown Sugar. Only has 160 calories and is delicious. I am going to try to eat this for breakfast everyday this week, with some Orange Juice.
Now for dinner, it looks like rice, beans or pasta with chicken. Maybe some frozen veggies, like broccoli or brussel sprouts.
The key to my diets success, however, will be portion control. This is something I just don't really have at all and will need to work on. Well that's all for now. More later.
As I said earlier I am going to try to incorporate my fresh fruit and vegetables into my diet. I think I am going to weigh myself every day and keep that logged and also my food choices so I can monitor my calories. I will probably be using spark people again, I like their website and they also have an android app.
I don't know much else at this point, but I will be keep a regular log of my progress because I think it will help me stay on track.
Saturday, July 23, 2011
I have to say that buying clothes when you're fat is a chore, and an uncomfortable one at that especially if you're like me and want to avoid the big and tall specialty stores. I will say I bought my clothes at Walmart mostly because they were cheap and still carry my size. I have found that most Walmart stores go up to a size 50 pant and 4x shirt in store and even higher on their website. I currently only have to wear a 48 and a 3x but that alone is enough for me to worry. I used to shop at other stores like Target and Old Navy but their stores don't really go past a 44 and buying clothes online is so hit and miss.
Anyway, I was going through my closet and decided to clean it up and I tried on everything, every pair of pants, every shirt, every jacket, every sweater - everything that was currently hanging in there. I think after all was said and done I got rid of 3 or 4 pairs of pants and over a dozen shirts. I also got rid of an Old Navy winter coat (not that I really need that in Texas) and two suit jackets. I also decided to go through my shoes and got rid of three pairs I never wore anymore.
I know have a lot of a less clothes which is okay, I managed to keep all of my clothes on the smallest shelf in our closet now. I was surprised however by all the clothes that still fit. There was a lot. I think I have maybe 6 or 7 pants now and maybe half a dozen short sleeved shirts and a dozen long sleeve shirts. Plus I managed to keep two dress jackets that still fit and several sweater vests.
All of this got me thinking that I need to start losing it - and by it I meant weight. I can't just keep buying new clothes when the old stuff stops fitting, who can afford that? Frankly I am also fearful for my health. I mean, I am now 25 years old, almost 26 and I weigh somewhere in the ballpark of 335 pounds. I don't think my body is going to tolerate that much more. I don't want to end up with Type two diabetes (although I am guessing I might get when I get older) and I certainly don't want to have a heart attack or stroke.
I have a family to take care of and I want to be there for them. Especially my little girl. I know it is extremely clichéd to say this, but I want to make sure I am there to walk my daughter down the aisle and see my grandchildren when that time comes.
So I have decided to go on a full blown diet, no excuses. I am not going to eat out for lunch at work anymore, but instead pack something from the house and that's all I am going to eat. I am going to eat Breakfast - skipping it doesn't really seem to help me any. I am going to avoid fried foods and soda. I am also going to practice portion control. I am only going to, where possible, eat a labeled portion of whatever it is I am eating. I am also going to try to incorporate my fresh fruits and vegetables into my diet, even if they are expensive. I need to make these good choices now so I can teach my daughter that these are the choices she needs to make too.
I suppose to I need to start exercising, which I am going to start slow. I mean I am terribly out of shape and sweat profusely doing anything in this heat. I will likely start out just walking around the neighborhood, possibly with Oscar (my dog) who could stand to lose a few as well, and he like to walk so it will be good for the both of us.
Friday, July 15, 2011
Then I found this near the bottom!
So after downloading the file - I am currently attempting an install - then I will run a new system discovery!