I have not posted on my blog in quite a while. Due to some complaints from some pretty annoying bastard I have decided to start posting again, also I plan on back posting events that have occurred, but will pretend as though I wrote about them right after they happened. For now this is all you get.
Thursday, December 08, 2011
Sunday, September 18, 2011
Saturday, September 17, 2011
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Monday, September 12, 2011
Saturday, August 27, 2011
It has been a while since I posted something, aside from the 49ers wordpress stuff... Anyway, this morning something cool happened, my scale said 320.00 - that is fantastic. Especially since I haven't been as controlling in my diet as I should be. So since I started this whole thing I have lost just over 15 pounds. The important thing is the diet is still working, I just have to buckle down and keep my calories low. I think, I will continue to hold off of the fitness and exercise until it cools off. That's all for now.
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Monday, August 22, 2011
Sunday, August 21, 2011
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Friday, August 19, 2011
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
Been a while since I posted anything... well I got caught up in life and didn't have much time. Today however I found a brief moment to blog. I mostly want to say I seem to have already hit my first hurdle. Since my last posted weight I haven't gained or lost any more. I have been keeping tabs daily and every morning I am within the same half a pound range. My diet has, as best I can tell, stayed consistently between 1500 and 2000 calories. So I can only assume this means that I need to become more active and/or try to stay closer to that 1500 calories. The thing is I am pretty self conscious as most fat people are and don't want to join a gym due to fear of ridicule. Even if that fear is unfounded. Of course I am also cheap. I also keep blaming the heat for me not wanting to exercise outside. Well, I guess thats just what happens when you are fat, you make excuses. Oh well. Well see what happens...
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Monday, August 15, 2011
Sunday, August 14, 2011
Saturday, August 13, 2011
Thursday, August 11, 2011
Now that I finally got yesterday's blog update published I am ready to address another topic, breakfast. I think I have talked about breakfast before, but today I want to talk about taste. Can't someone come up with a low calorie great tasting fast and easy to prepare breakfast that is also inexpensive? Don't get me started on cereal bars, to a fat person the box of cereal bars is considered a meal and most of them aren't cheap. I don't mind eating oatmeal, but it can get old really quick. Well I have to finish getting ready for work so more later.
Some days dieting is the last thing I want to think about. This is one of those days. I ate too much for dinner, even though I knew it was too much. I think the problem is that I don't have any good support. Dieting alone is so damn hard. When everyone else you know is enjoying or even flaunting their food choices it makes me feel terrible. I don't know why. I suppose too, it pisses me off when people think they're fat and they aren't. Look people, I am fat. I weigh over 320 lbs and have a 48 in waistline. I wear triple X tshirts and my neck size in a collared shirt is a 19. So the next time you think you're fat, ask yourself "Am I really fat, like Ben, or do I just think I am fat because I believe what TV and Magazines say fat is supposed to be. Seriously, if we could make me (at this stage of my diet) the poster boy for Obesity and being fat so people have an accurate comparison. How the hell did I get so off topic? The point is I need to become motivated again or else I will remain on that poster.
As a side note I blog on my droid and blogger is being very irritating by not publishing this post. It has failed over a dozen times...
Oh just saw this on blogger.com, guess I have to wait til 8 to post...
Tuesday, August 09, 2011
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Tuesday, August 09, 2011
I have decided that this weekend I will start on the exercise thing. The weather is looking better and by that I mean cooler. I think I will start off in the morning with a walk, possibly with Oscar, if he's up to going a mile. Oscar, by the way is also on a diet since well I think he needs to be. He doesn't like his new diet food, but eventually eats it when left with no alternative. I sometimes feel the same way about my food. Although honestly I have not changed what I am eating as much as just eating less of it. My biggest complaint is fresh fruit and vegetables are so awful expensive. I wish I could incorporate a more varied selection into my diet. Although apples, oranges and bananas are good, it would be nice to have some melons, kiwi or grapes. As for vegetables, I eat salad whenever I get the chance, but that isn't every day. I also know that beans and pasta are cheap and filling, but the calories to portion doesn't work out in my favor. The hard part is that I am the only one in the house dieting so sometimes I won't eat what the others are having for dinner, although I am tempted. I am happy to say I haven't had a soda since I started this diet. Now to work on my sweet tea habit. I have unfortunately had some fried foods, but a very limited amount. The point is that I am trying and I will continue.
Sunday, August 07, 2011
Saturday, August 06, 2011
So, it has been two weeks since I started this diet and against all odds and possibly all office pools I am still going. August, September and October should be easy, but in November you have Thanksgiving and the start of Egg Nog, which I may have to skip this year. Then of course Christmas with all the cookies and sweets. We will see if I can last. I suppose first I should just keep looking to today and tomorrow. Take each day and make the best of it. I have started off with some good momentum and progress. As long as I can keep myself focused I know I can succeed.
Thursday, August 04, 2011
No, not the anniversary of my diet, but the anniversary of my marriage. As such I went out to eat and did my best to stay true to my diet, until dessert. We went to BJs Brewshouse which is a relatively new restaurant in Tyler. We split a pizza Margarita (I am not sure if it is spelled the same as the drink) for an appetizer. And I had the pork chops from their light menu of choices under 550 (I could be wrong about the number) calories. I also, might add, had a mojito. The fact is I can't pass up an opportunity to try a mojito. We finished the meal splitting a pizookie which is a deep dish cookie with two scoops of vanilla bean ice cream. That was what sent me over 2000 calories today.
I should mention the day started off light with my usual oatmeal and tea. For lunch I had taco bueno, thanks to my coworker for buying. I had two chicken soft Tacos without the cheese and a 12 oz strawberry smoothie. All that was just a little bit over 400 calories. So the brunt of my calories were dinner. Anyway after dinner the misses wanted to go shopping, so I am writing this at the mall, as she tries on clothes.
Wednesday, August 03, 2011
You know I am slowly, but surely getting used to this diet. The hunger pains are not as bad or even noticeable as they were when I started. I think that I can actually eat 1500 calories a day and be content, although that may change when I can start exercising in full force or exercising at all. The heat is less than ideal for someone starting out on the exercise thing. So far, dieting alone has proven more than adequate. The most important thing is drinking water, which curbs my appetite quite well. I am still drinking about 10 cups of water a day. Mostly because of the heat, but it is actually good for me - the water, not the heat.
So, today I weighed myself, mostly because I keep forgetting to in the morning. I got on the scale and it said E... it is one of those pesky digital scales that you have to step on at just the right time or it can't weigh you. Anyway the second time it said 324.2 and I was stunned. I had expected maybe a pound or two, but not over 4 since my last weigh in. I think this diet is working. Of course I have no idea how many calories I was eating before. I could have easily eaten three or four thousand calories a day, since I now know how little actually equals 2000 calories. Of course I say little because I am still used to mammoth portions and lots of snacking. Maybe that is why the obesity epidemic is so rampant, you don't realize how much you have had to eat. In the end though it is a persons own responsibility to monitor their eating habits and act accordingly.
Tuesday, August 02, 2011
So today I woke up rather late and just got to work on time. I didn't get a chance to pack a lunch and my wife offered to come by and have lunch with me. I graciously accepted, but made some bad choices about my meal. Suffice it to say, I am having a sandwich for dinner, thankfully I only had oatmeal and tea for breakfast. Tomorrow I am going to try to stay closer to my 1500 calorie goal. Dieting is not at all easy, which is why so many people fail or give up. The key is having a goal and a reason for changing your life. Motivation is part of the equation and so are determination and perseverance. I personally refuse to believe that any one has to be fat. They might choose it, directly or indirectly, but it is something that can be changed. I plan on proving that to myself.
Monday, August 01, 2011
Back to the doldrums of work. However with that comes the consistency of a packed lunch and Breakfast before work. Now, as for the dinner portion of my day, there is still no consistency, but that is why they say variety is the spice of life.
Sunday, July 31, 2011
An important thing to remember is making time for your family. You are only on the earth for a short while and you need to spend as much of it as you can with family. There is nothing more important than family.
I have found that water is very important to curbing my hunger. I have been drinking between 8 and 10 cups when bottled spring water is available. I don't care for tap water, so when that is all we have I tend to drink less. Starting this week I plan on really forcing myself to walk and drinking water will be key to me being able to do that. Especially in this weather, when it is supposed to be over 100 every day.
Well, the first in a small series of hurdles has been jumped over, so to speak. This morning my starting weight was 329.0 pounds. I am pretty sure since I broke 330 around February of this year I haven't seen a 32# pound number. Now next goal is to break 320 and so forth until I reach 250 which I don't have planned to do until well into next year. This is the first little reward and motivator for me to keep going and I certainly will. I think it may be time to be more conscious about exercise and really make sure I get a mile in and I suppose I need to sit around the house less, which means fewer hours watching TV.
Saturday, July 30, 2011
I also got a haircut today. It feels so nice to not have to deal with hair and I personally think it might help me with my weight loss, slightly, but every ounce counts when you're trying to lose weight. Didn't get around to yard work today, it was too hot and I woke up too late. Maybe tomorrow I can get some of it done. I did clean house today. So, that's something I suppose. Being sunburnt seems to make you want to not do anything - or so I have found. Who knows.
Friday, July 29, 2011
So, today was a bad day. I have surpassed 2000 calories and have not even eaten dinner. Although I am not necessarily hungry. The main culprit was soda. I probably had the equivalent of a 2L of coke or more. Plus I had fries, part of a cheese burger and a funnel cake. In case you are wondering I had the day off today and originally planned on helping Chelsea clean out her class room, but she finished yesterday and since I had already taken the day off we went to Six Flags Hurricane Harbor in Arlington. I should mention I did try to be good by eating a grilled chicken salad, but I did have thousand Island dressing. Not to mention I ate some of Chelsea's fries, part of her Cheeseburger, and part of her funnel cake. Not to mention I made use of my free refills from my souvenir sports cup, sure I could've gotten a diet coke or something else, but I really felt like coca cola. I do think however all the water play must have burned a few of those calories. If I do eat dinner I will try to keep it small and healthy and make up for it this weekend, trying to stay as close to 1500 calories as possible and doing some yard work. Of course there will also be some cleaning up that also comes with the weekend.
Thursday, July 28, 2011
First I want to say I had two eggs, scrambled for breakfast. They were delicious with a cup of orange juice. Now for dinner we had soft Tacos with chicken and rice. This is a pretty good diet food, if you take it easy or skip the extras all together and have only a little rice. In addition I found some low carb, low fat flour Tortillas which were also surprisingly good for you, compared to the others. Not to mention the fact that they were high in fiber. I enjoyed three plus a cup of rice. Plus I might add without a side of guilt. We'll see what tomorrow and the weekend has in store...
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
I did a bad thing and went back for seconds. I hit 2000 calories today, almost 2100 to be honest. Now I feel bad. I wasn't trying to, but my hunger got the better of me. It was not even that good of a dinner, just spaghetti with meat sauce. I think I may need to up my water intake to offset my hunger. Well I will have to do better tomorrow. Maybe I can make up for it with some exercise tomorrow. We will see what tomorrow holds.
I am getting lunch sick maybe next week I will have more variety. I am going to try eggs for breakfast tomorrow. My hunger isn't getting any better. I don't know how long it will take until I get used to eating less. I am still trying to walk, but I don't know what else to do to exercise. It's so hot outside and not really any room inside. I don't even know any exercises, really. That just shows you how fat and out of shape I am. You know I think it is funny, looking back, that my brother used to joke that I was a shape, whenever I said I was out of shape. Brothers can be cruel. I know that I took a lot of shit my whole life for being fat. I have had enough. That is why I want to do this.
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
Today was better, I had a peanut butter sandwich for breakfast instead of oatmeal and more beans and rice for dinner. My lunch was exactly the same. I even took a short walk with Oscar this afternoon, about 1/2 mile and in this heat it was not that fun. We'll see what tomorrow has in store.
Monday, July 25, 2011
I am hungry. Breakfast and lunch seem so small. I am looking forward to dinner, but also dreading it because I know that will be it for today.
Also my coworkers are jerks. Apparently no one thinks that I can diet or will last this out. Well dammit I am going to try.
I think we're having beans for dinner. Not sure how to feel about that.
On a bright note my new clothes fit remarkably well, although I think I will wear the belt to help keep my shirt tucked in the back. I need to figure out how to be more active at work. I think I need to do more stuff outside of the office.
Sunday, July 24, 2011
So I was thinking, since I want to start off slow and walk I need to make sure that I can keep track of it. I found Endomondo Sports Tracker in the android market. It uses a gps to monitor my distance as well as a timer to see how long I have been going. I input my weight and tell it what I am doing and it even estimates the calories expended. I did a quick 1/3rd mile around my coldesac and it got it all, even with the phone in my front pocket. This will be a very useful tool.
I purchased groceries earlier this morning. I bought some oranges, bananas, apples and carrots. I plan on incorporating these items into my lunch. Most likely I will still eat a sandwich of some sort.
I also ate some oatmeal for breakfast. It is Quaker Oats High Fiber Maple and Brown Sugar. Only has 160 calories and is delicious. I am going to try to eat this for breakfast everyday this week, with some Orange Juice.
Now for dinner, it looks like rice, beans or pasta with chicken. Maybe some frozen veggies, like broccoli or brussel sprouts.
The key to my diets success, however, will be portion control. This is something I just don't really have at all and will need to work on. Well that's all for now. More later.
As I said earlier I am going to try to incorporate my fresh fruit and vegetables into my diet. I think I am going to weigh myself every day and keep that logged and also my food choices so I can monitor my calories. I will probably be using spark people again, I like their website and they also have an android app.
I don't know much else at this point, but I will be keep a regular log of my progress because I think it will help me stay on track.
Saturday, July 23, 2011
I have to say that buying clothes when you're fat is a chore, and an uncomfortable one at that especially if you're like me and want to avoid the big and tall specialty stores. I will say I bought my clothes at Walmart mostly because they were cheap and still carry my size. I have found that most Walmart stores go up to a size 50 pant and 4x shirt in store and even higher on their website. I currently only have to wear a 48 and a 3x but that alone is enough for me to worry. I used to shop at other stores like Target and Old Navy but their stores don't really go past a 44 and buying clothes online is so hit and miss.
Anyway, I was going through my closet and decided to clean it up and I tried on everything, every pair of pants, every shirt, every jacket, every sweater - everything that was currently hanging in there. I think after all was said and done I got rid of 3 or 4 pairs of pants and over a dozen shirts. I also got rid of an Old Navy winter coat (not that I really need that in Texas) and two suit jackets. I also decided to go through my shoes and got rid of three pairs I never wore anymore.
I know have a lot of a less clothes which is okay, I managed to keep all of my clothes on the smallest shelf in our closet now. I was surprised however by all the clothes that still fit. There was a lot. I think I have maybe 6 or 7 pants now and maybe half a dozen short sleeved shirts and a dozen long sleeve shirts. Plus I managed to keep two dress jackets that still fit and several sweater vests.
All of this got me thinking that I need to start losing it - and by it I meant weight. I can't just keep buying new clothes when the old stuff stops fitting, who can afford that? Frankly I am also fearful for my health. I mean, I am now 25 years old, almost 26 and I weigh somewhere in the ballpark of 335 pounds. I don't think my body is going to tolerate that much more. I don't want to end up with Type two diabetes (although I am guessing I might get when I get older) and I certainly don't want to have a heart attack or stroke.
I have a family to take care of and I want to be there for them. Especially my little girl. I know it is extremely clichéd to say this, but I want to make sure I am there to walk my daughter down the aisle and see my grandchildren when that time comes.
So I have decided to go on a full blown diet, no excuses. I am not going to eat out for lunch at work anymore, but instead pack something from the house and that's all I am going to eat. I am going to eat Breakfast - skipping it doesn't really seem to help me any. I am going to avoid fried foods and soda. I am also going to practice portion control. I am only going to, where possible, eat a labeled portion of whatever it is I am eating. I am also going to try to incorporate my fresh fruits and vegetables into my diet, even if they are expensive. I need to make these good choices now so I can teach my daughter that these are the choices she needs to make too.
I suppose to I need to start exercising, which I am going to start slow. I mean I am terribly out of shape and sweat profusely doing anything in this heat. I will likely start out just walking around the neighborhood, possibly with Oscar (my dog) who could stand to lose a few as well, and he like to walk so it will be good for the both of us.
Friday, July 15, 2011
Then I found this near the bottom!
So after downloading the file - I am currently attempting an install - then I will run a new system discovery!
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
I will say on a side note, migrating my WDS from Server 2003 to Server 2008 R2 was far less complicated than I had assumed it would be. Although I am guessing I will need to recreate my boot images, which isn't that bad a thing. I need to reconfigure some network settings and then start testing. In either case I am replacing a system that is several years old and past its prime, so I am happy.