Friday, March 24, 2006

Men, by default, are stupid!

I don't know why we do the things we do, but you know we guys are DUMB!

We frequently say things that aren't supposed to be said. Saying them before we think about them. Saying them without considering the consequences. Why, do we do it? I dunno.

I know, and will admit, I do it alot. Too often. I hate myself for that.

I just hope that it can be understood I don't really mean any of these things. I just say them. Okay, that doesn't sound good, but honestly why I would I want to make someone feel bad?

Of course the thing that makes it worse is that, I say sorry too many times.
But this is simply because I am wrong too many times.
So simply I ask, perhaps in vain, forgive me for being stupid, because I am.

Why I told her how I felt about her!

Well, my girlfriend Chelsea, kept asking me what why I finally told her how I felt about her, after well, not telling her for the longest time. I figure, what better way to tell her than on a public spot on the web for everyone to see.

First, I give a good deal of credit for the timing to my Roommate Russell and friend Amber. All their taunts and pushes and suggestive comments had become too much. It wasn't that I didn't want to tell Chelsea how I felt, but I wanted to tell her at what I felt was maybe a more appropriate time. Not that I didn't mind doing it when I did. I was trying to do something special and romantic. Instead it ended up being abrupt and anything but romantic.

Second, I had strong feelings for Chelsea my first year, but didn't know if I should follow through with them. I mean I had never been in a relationship with anyway and the thought honestly scared me. Of course, I wasn't afraid of Chelsea, but more the possibility of rejection. Though never having been rejected I don't know why I was afraid.

Really I just wanted to tell her, because if I didn't I thought I would be making the biggest mistake of my life. Now I am quite possibly the happiest man on the planet. I have a beautiful, wonderful girlfriend.

I don't have a clue

I'm so very tired. It's almost all the time now.