Saturday, December 31, 2005

It is 6 days, 22 hours, 50 minutes and 16 seconds until January 7, 2006, at 5:28:00 PM.

It is 6 days, 22 hours, 50 minutes and 16 seconds until January 7, 2006, at 5:28:00 PM.

Amazing News

*I copied this from EM-DC, but the news is too amazing not to post here.

The "Duck" Arrives in the US!


Well, after much struggling, the [H]ard|OCP Team has finally wrestled the famous "relic trophy" away from the OCAU Team. Just in time to bring in the new year. It has been a long struggle coming back to dominate the tough as nails OCAU Team. I wouldn't start counting the down-under team out too quickly. They have been known to pull a few 'Roos' out of their hats. The new year should prove interesting. How long can the [H]orde hold on to the lead? Only time will tell. Congrats to the [H]ard|OCP Team!

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

I'm Going Slightly Mad

10 days, 22 hours, 55 minutes and 11 seconds

When the outside temperature rises
And the meaning is oh so clear
One thousand and one yellow daffodils
Begin to dance in front of you - oh dear
Are they trying to tell you something?
You're missing that one final screw
You're simply not in the pink my dear
To be honest you haven't got a clue
I'm going slightly mad
I'm going slightly mad
It finally happened - happened
It finally happened - ooh oh
It finally happened - I'm slightly mad
Oh dear!
I'm one card short of a full deck
I'm not quite the shilling
One wave short of a shipwreck
I'm not at my usual top billing
I'm coming down with a fever
I'm really out to sea
This kettle is boiling over
I think I'm a banana tree
Oh dear, I'm going slightly mad
I'm going slightly mad
It finally happened, happened
It finally happened uh huh
It finally happened I'm slightly mad - oh dear!
I'm knitting with only one needle
Unravelling fast its true
I'm driving only three wheels these days
But my dear how about you?
I'm going slightly mad
I'm going slightly mad
It finally happened
It finally happened oh yes
It finally happened
I'm slightly mad!
Just very slightly mad!
And there you have it!

Being an idiot is no box of chocolates

You know, sometimes, people do the wrong thing.
Other times people say the wrong thing.
The rest of the time, they do the right thing.

People are known for being stupid. I mean just look at the history of man.
There have been a lot of morons.

I guess what I am saying is, you've got to put up with stupid people.

Monday, December 26, 2005

Last post for the evening

Okay, well I might fall asleep now...

Maybe...

We'll see...

So, I have to ask

Did everyone who celebrates Christmas have an enjoyable one?

I am sure you did.

Maybe...

I did.

Late night ramblings are usually funnier when you write them

If you are up in the middle of the night and write things on a blog. There is a good chance they won't be "funny" in the morning.

Eating toblerone can be dangerous...

If you forget to remove the foil.


Please de-foil your toblerone before you eat it.

Also go to the website, the picture is HILARIOUS!!

R2D2 is actually the real hero of all the Star Wars movies

I don't have any reason for saything this, though I do.

Just watch all the movies and you will agree with me.

If it weren't for that little droid, well yeah!

Exactly, now do you see.

Sunday, December 25, 2005

New Time Update

From and including: Sunday, December 25, 2005 at 9:02:07 PM
To, but not including : Saturday, January 7, 2006 at 5:28:00 PM

The duration is 12 days, 20 hours, 25 minutes and 53 seconds

Or 12 days, 20 hours, 25 minutes, 53 seconds

Holday Greeting

Happy Holidays...

Merry Christmas...

Happy Hanukkah...

Happy Kwanzaa??

There, everyone else, remain offended...

Saturday, December 24, 2005

Eating out of guilt

I don't know why, but whenever I feel guilty about something (or occasionally out of boredom) I eat.

I don't even have to be hungry.

Right now I am eating a super thick sandwich, with way too much meat cheese mayoniase and mustard. I am not hungry and I certainly shouldn't be eating, but I can't seem to help myself.

It doesn't even taste all that good.

I always do stupid things and end up doing something like this. Good thing my fingernails are already mowed down from other traumas or else I'd be chewing on them too...

I wish I could be normal for just a day or maybe even an hour (while I am awake preferably).

Though I really just wish I wasn't stupid enough to mess up good things.

So basically to my family and loved ones: I am so sorry for acting like an ass on the 23rd/24th. If you don't know what I am talking about this doesn't apply to you.

I just want everyone to have a great day today!

=B=

Thursday, December 22, 2005

The Cat without a name

Recent Trip To D.C.


This is me in Washington D.C.

I am standing at the WWII Memorial.

The Lincoln Memorial is in the back.














This is the National Christmas Tree

Not so pretty during the day.

Sorry no night pic.
















This is the White House of course...

It looks kind of nice,
current occupant aside.













This is the Texas Tree that sits around the National Christmas Tree.

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Winter Solstice

Today is the day of the winter solstice...

Well the first day of Winter astronomically speaking...

Have a great season everyone, you're already hating it anyway...

An Interesting Email

Slightly modified, for purposes of my blog.

~ TIBETAN PERSONALITY TEST ~
________________________________________________________________________

Just 4 questions and the answers will surprise you.

Be honest and do not cheat by looking up the answers. The mind is like a parachute, it works best when it is opened. This is fun to do, but you have to follow the instructions ! very closely. Do not cheat.
MAKE A WISH BEFORE BEGINNING THE TEST!

A warning! Answer the questions as you go along. There are only 4 questions and if you see them all before finishing, you will not have honest results.

Go down slowly, and complete each exercise as you scroll down.

Don't look ahead. Get pencil and paper to write your answers as you go along.

You will need it at the end .This is an honest questionnaire which will tell you a lot about your true self. Give an answer for each item. The first thing that comes to mind is usually your best answer. Remember - no one sees this but you.

1) Put the following 5 animals in the
order of your preference:
Cow, Tiger, Sheep, Horse, Pig

2) Write one word that describes each one of the following:
Dog, Cat, Rat, Coffee, Sea.

3) Think of someone, who also knows you and is important to you, which you can relate them to the following colors. Do not repeat your answer twice.

Name just one person for each color:

Yellow, Orange, Red, White, Green.

4) Finally, write down your favorite number, and your favorite day of the week.

FINISHED? Please be sure that your answers are what you REALLY WANT.

Look at the interpretations below: But first before continuing,

REPEAT your wish.
ANSWERS:

1) This will define your priorities in your life.
Cow Signifies CAREER
Tiger Signifies PRIDE
Sheep Signifies LOVE
Horse Signifies FAMILY
Pig Signifies MONEY

2) Your description of dog implies your own personality.
Your description of cat implies the personality of your partner.
Your description of rat implies the personality of your enemies.
Your description of coffee is how you interpret sex.
Your description of the sea implies your ownlife.

3) Yellow: Someone you will never forget
Orange: Someone you consider your true friend
Red: Someone that you really love
White: Your twin soul
Green: Someone that you will remember for the rest of your life.

4) You have to send this message to as many persons as your favorite number and your wish will come true on the day that you recorded.

I cut off the end because it isn't really important as this isn't an email...

Something I never want to read again

I was in a car accident ... I am ok - I guess. More later

Okay Now, I got the above email last night (this morning?) I dunno and well, yeah...

Freaked the crap out of me.

This is something you don't email someone and tell them about.

Thankfully everything is okay, for the person who sent me this email, but still...

=B=

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Monday, December 19, 2005

What Christmas is all about Drunken Santa

I saw this story and laughed and lauged and laughed.

Then I began to wonder if a child reads this won't they begin to question the reality of the clause and realise in fact he does not exist?

That is right.

SANTA CLAUS does not exist.

For all you still believers. STUPID!!

=The Management=

More Insanity

From and including: Monday, December 19, 2005 at 2:33:29 PM
To, but not including : Saturday, January 7, 2006 at 5:28:00 PM

The duration is 19 days, 2 hours, 54 minutes and 31 seconds

Sunday, December 18, 2005

time and date .com

From and including: Monday, December 19, 2005 at 12:13:27 AM
To, but not including : Saturday, January 7, 2006 at 5:28:00 PM

The duration is 19 days, 17 hours, 14 minutes and 33 seconds

20 days, 5 hours, 28 minutes and 0 seconds

As of noon CST

Saturday, December 17, 2005

Time to start a new tradition

The weekly asshat award.

I am going back to my true purpose. To hate people and as such every saturday/sunday from now on I will beqeauth the title of Asshat of the week to someone. (Sometimes w/ picture sometimes w/out.) Also the award can and will be given multiple times to the same person, but for a different reason each time.

This weeks winner:

ME

Why? Because I am the owner of this blog.

20 days, 21 hours, 28 minutes

Two more cents for the offering bowl...

Well...Oh well...

I shouldn't open my mouth, but I will because I don't give a rat's ass anymore...

IF YOU LIKE/LOVE SOMEONE JUST TELL THEM
TELL THEM
TELL THEM

It might seem the like God Damned Hardest thing in the world to do, but just get over yourself and do it. Then if they reject you, by all means take it...

If they accept your statement, even if for the wrong reasons, then by all means go on with it. However if down the road your heart is broken, remember you were the dumbass who put yourself there.

Sometimes I regret knowing the people I know because they are such wankers...

Other times, I realize I have to put up with their dense stupidities...

For the love of GOD, though, WHY?

Of course sometimes it can't be helped...people are led to believe stupid things...by other people who are foolish enough to lead them on and possibly ruin many lives in the process...

I just wonder why some people would become so dillusional and why other people create these false realities for them. It makes no sense to me.

Every one should just, for the love of all that is good and bad with the world today and then some just say how they feel about all the people they know, whether good, bad, humiliating and disgusting.

Can we PLEASE just end the cherade and the horridness. Can we all just be happy productive people? PLEASE??

Other wise, the shoe might come off and hit some stupid bastards in the head.

That is all I have to say...

(I apologize for the language but it was necessary)

Friday, December 16, 2005

Sooo tired....

Okay, so I just saw Spaceballs.

Excellent

Excellent

Excellent

Gonna sleep now...

I hate being an hour ahead of where I should be...and seriously it is Friday, WTF I am going to sleep just after midnight?

Who cares..

Either way, too bed. To think happy thoughts...

To think of loved ones, far away...

-Goodbye...

It is okay to cry...

...if love is the reason.

...or if you've just been kneed by someone.

=Me=

Sepration

sep�a�ra�tion
n.
1.
__1. The act or process of separating.
__2. The condition of being separated.
2. The place at which a division or parting occurs.
3. An interval or space that separates; a gap.
4.
__1. Law. An agreement or court decree terminating a spousal relationship.
__2. Discharge, as from employment or military service.
5. The hardest thing in the world for me right now.

Sappy maybe, but true..

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

552+ Hours

So, much time...

Aarrghhh...

Must focus, on the positive...

=

23 Days

I can't stand the thought of being away from you...
I don't know what I'll do to get by...
I just want to hug you and never let go...
I don't want to say goodbye, it is just too hard...
I will think of you all the time...

=B=

Hamburger Helper is not ParTay Food!

But I'm still not sleepy

Gary Jules - Pills
I've taken all my pills
But I'm still not sleepy
Tried to trick myself into thinking
That I'm not awake
That it's only a dream
Put that cigarette out
Don't ask me no questions
Salome dancing on my wall
And the shadows on the floor
Look so warm from here
I've seen it all before
Just one little lie
But the difference is this
It meant the world to me
Don't ask me no questions
"Take the wheel" she said "as I wander"
We could leave this town
I've got all I need: spirit, hope and joy
But no one knows me
I think I lost my pills
Guess I'll take my chances
I'm looking at the telephone
But nothing happens
I am well aware
That the morning is near
Put the radio down
Don't ask me no questions

Man, this guy just can't turn off the greatness...sorry I'll stop hijacking the blog with Gary Jules lyrics...

Coffee really farms me up...

Something Else - Gary Jules
They never tell you truth is subjective
They only tell you not to lie
They never tell you there's strength in vulnerability
They only tell you not to cry
But I've been living underground
Sleeping on the way
And finding something else to say
Is like walking on the freeway
They never tell you you don't need to be ashamed
They only tell you to deny
So is it true that only good girls go to heaven?
They only sell you what you buy
And I've been living underground
Sleeping on the way
And finding something else to say
Is like walking on the freeway
I've been living underground
Trying not to burn
And finding something else to learn
At Hollywood and western

This is such a great song...

God my blood pressure...

I just drank 20 oz of coffee, WTF?

So like, seriously.

I am not entirely lucid.

I have been awake since 8ish yesterday.

I have one more final from 10:15-12:15, but hopefully it won't take that long.

Why the farm did I drink that? I mean sure it tasted great and it only cost me $1.84, but seriously, WTF?

I am either going to be so screwed up my arm will shake the wrong answers on my scantron, or I am going to fall asleep, like THAT! Which would suck.

Wish me luck, btw...

=B=

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

Some pondering and observations...

Ignorance is bliss only if you don't hurt others in the process...

The only difference between an insult and a joke is who you tell it to...

There can be too much of a good thing, but doesn't mean you should complain about it...

The Burger King guy is the scariest mofo on the earth...

Disco isn't coming back, but it never really left, it just became unpopular...

No one really knows what they are talking about, its all bull sh**...

Hot dog buns come in packs of 8 and hot dogs come in packs of 10...

Songs don't get old, they just get annoying, but really they just become classics...

Just because someone says Merry Christmas, doesn't mean their trying to Christianize you...

Just because someone says Happy Holidays, doesn't mean their trying to take away your Christianity...

Once a wanker, always a wanker...

One man's opinion is just that, don't take anyone seriously...

Just because you saw it on TV doesn't mean you can do it, but I am not telling you not try, the gene pool could always use some weeding out...

Gay and Hate are over used today. I hate it when people are gay and use hate and gay way too often to describe things they do not hate or are in fact not gay...

Newer does not necessarily mean better. Stick with what you have and figure out what you need, not what you want. You'll just waste all your money that way...

Lists are annoying...

Music is just as good if you listen to it quietly or at a reasonable volume as opposed to making my ceiling or floor shake...

Don't claim to know something is true, instead claim to know why something is true...

Politics and bureaucracy are necessary evils, unfortunately no one seems to understand why...

God willing, we'll realize that being secular in most things is a good thing...

If your mind is in the gutter, chances are you shouldn't have been playing in the sewer...

Objects in the rear view mirror sometimes aren't what you were expecting...

There is never an any key on a keyboard when you need one...

Clean rooms never stay that way...

Clothes don't like to fold themselves...

The grass is only greener on the other side if the neighbors dog craps on your lawn...

One size fits all doesn't...

Things only work when they are needed 1% of the time, the other 99% of the time the IT guy is helping someone else...

Made in China is not a help wanted ad...

Deodorants, don't. They usually just cover up your smell with their own...

Random things go together better than some people might imagine...

Alarm clocks don't seem to wake you up as much as they annoy you...

Movie remakes hardly ever are, they usually just suck and don't capture what the original did...

People use good the wrong when speaking too much...

What you remember doing as a kid isn't the way kids remember to do it now...

Every cloud does in fact not have a silver lining...

Most things come to an end...

Some things never end...

This is my 200th POST, YAY!!!

So, what if anything have I learned in this time? I don't know.

I know I have very few readers, either that or no one likes to comment...

I myself, I have had fun. I plan on continuing with this endeavor until it just becomes, tedious. SO NEVER.

Well, I am watching Mad Max on AMC and this movie sucks. I've seen it before and it is worse now then it was then.

Now to bring back an old tradition, a song:
Broke Window - Gary Jules

Loaded tongue and dirty fingers
Queen of her mother's house
Come step outside feeling full moon high
Let's see what we can live without

Fix an eye to the dimestore villain
Waiting for the wine to pour
It comes strong and thin and it tastes like sin
The love we've all been in before

A million ways to burn
I'm just looking out of this old broke window
And she's taking a turn
I'm looking out of this old broke window
And she's taking a turn

Her body lies like a landscape before you
You're selling your soul by the pound
Got snakeoil in spades for the wolftickets trade
You look but don't see me around

A million ways to burn
I'm just standing here on this old street corner
And she's taking a turn
I'm standing here on this old street corner
And she's taking a turn

Don't over think...

You know, thinking too heavily about something, sometimes causes a problem all its own. Sometimes it is easier to go where you are taken. That is let, for lack of a better word, fate be your guide.

Well off to class...soon...1 Final Today in Whitson's this isn't going to be fun...

=B=

Sunday, December 11, 2005

The great weight loss challenge...

I am going to, willingly, attempt to lose weight.

However I am going to need a lot of moral support, as I will want to quit over and over and over again.

However, I do want to do it.

I mean, I think I weight something close to 300lbs if not more. Over the course of the next few months I would like to lose as much of that as possible.

I kind of fear for my health, you know. Weighing so much isn't exactly normal or healthy.

I'll keep you updated on my progress and we'll see what happens.

How do you describe it

This wonderful, wonderful feeling...

feel�ing
n.

1.
1. The sensation involving perception by touch.
2. A sensation experienced through touch.
3. A physical sensation: a feeling of warmth.
2. An affective state of consciousness, such as that resulting from emotions, sentiments, or desires: experienced a feeling of excitement.
3. An awareness or impression: He had the feeling that he was being followed.
4.
1. An emotional state or disposition; an emotion: expressed deep feeling.
2. A tender emotion; a fondness.
5.
1. Capacity to experience the higher emotions; sensitivity; sensibility: a man of feeling.
2. feelings Susceptibility to emotional response; sensibilities: The child's feelings are easily hurt.
6. Opinion based more on emotion than on reason; sentiment.
7. A general impression conveyed by a person, place, or thing: The stuffy air gave one the feeling of being in a tomb.
8.
1. Appreciative regard or understanding: a feeling for propriety.
2. Intuitive awareness or aptitude; a feel: has a feeling for language.


adj.

1. Having the ability to react or feel emotionally; sentient; sensitive.
2. Easily moved emotionally; sympathetic: a feeling heart.
3. Expressive of sensibility or emotion: a feeling glance.

........perhaps one day I can describe it...

Saturday, December 10, 2005

So...on a more less serious note

They say it ain't over 'til the fat lady sings, but so frequently do people end it themselves.

So the question is, why?

Why breathe the last breath? Why smile the last smile? Why smell the last smell? Why see the last sight? Why feel the last sensation?

Especially when it is not meant to be.

Sure a touchy subject for many. However one also thought about frequently.

Please don't get me wrong. I would never. I merely ask a few too many questions.

Richard Franklin Lenox Thomas Pryor (December 1, 1940 ? December 10, 2005)

Pryor died of cardiac arrest at the age of 65 in an Encino hospital on the morning of December 10, 2005. He was brought to the hospital after his wife's attempts to resuscitate him failed.

O Fortuna c. 1230


Text:
1.O Fortuna,
velut luna
statu variabilis,
semper crescis
aut descrescis;
vita detestabilis
nunc obdurat
et tunc curat
ludo mentis aciem,
egestatem,
potestatem
dissolvit ut glaciem.

Translation:

O Fortune,
just as the moon
you vary your state
always increasing
or decreasing; 5
the detestable life
now difficult
and then easy
with your games sharpens
poverty,
power 10
dissolves like ice.


2.Sors inmanis
et inanis,
rota tu volubilis,
status malus,
vana salus
semper dissolubilis,
obrumbratam
et velatam
mihi quoque niteris,
nunc per ludum
dorsum nudum
fero tui sceleris.


Often great
and empty,
your revolving wheel, 15
an evil state,
vain health
always dissolving,
concealing
and veiled 20
you also strive for me
now by game,
a lost shirt
I guiltily take because of you.


3.Sors salutis
et virtutis
mihi nunc contraria,
est affectus
et defectus
semper in angaria;
hac in hora
sine mora
cordis pulsum tangite,
quod per sortem
sternit fortem
mecum omnes plangite.


Often my health 25
and my virtue
are now contrary for me,
affected
and defective
always in torment; 30
In this hour
without delay
take the pulse of my heart,
which through fate,
she overthrows my strength: 35
weep all of you with me.

A theological question...

If there should be just one God and that God wants all people on Earth to believe in them. Why doesn't that God make it more obvious in its Existence?

Sure faith is all well and good, but I just don't buy into it.

I mean everyone has their own opinion on the matter, so obviously most everyone has to be wrong.

That would mean only a select few people really know.

What kind of a God would segregate people from each other?

Religion is so, confusing to me.

What about empirical truth? What about cold hard facts?

Why can't their be an easy answer?

Sticking the shoe in the mouth...

I am going to from now on, attempt to, keep myself out of any and all possible matters involving people other than myself...

Everyone can do anything they want to...

There, you happy...

I'll shut up now...

Bye...

Quitting Cold Turkey

It is going to be difficult, but I think I can do it.

And no I don't smoke or drink or anything like that.

Friday, December 09, 2005

So, I really need a lock on my door

Okay, so day before last, or maybe it was yesterday, my memory sucks...anyway a certain person, BARGES in to the apartment.

Subsequentlty and for a reason I will not understand this person barges into my room. Of course first UNLOCKING it. As it was locked, with the little thing the door has. However it is not a real lock.

Anyway, to quote what I told someone else: "Well, lets just say I was in a compromising state and am thankful I had a blanket."

That is really the best way to put it. Read into that what you will.
Either way, I seriously need a good damn lock. That is just wrong.

Do you ever wish...

...that sometimes people would just hurry up and get over themselves?

Or more importantly, decide what they really want. After all that is what is really most important.

Look at it like this. If you are a citizen of a foreign country and have deul citizenship with another country. You have to at some point visit both countries. However, after a while that kind of gets tedious. You could have a home set up in the first country and just a small apartment in the other. Lots of friends in the one country and a few in the other. Of course you are probably enjoying yourself being able to move around from place to place see new things. At some point you are tired of carrying all that baggage back and forth from country to country and you want to settle down. Do you do it where you spend the greater half of your or the lesser half of your year?

One poor man's two cents (Canadian).
=B=

A little bit sickening

If you don't like the 8 songs below, sorry. I do.

Also check out the link in the title, it is kind of funny.

+b+

You'll see, oh yeah

I ain't complainin'
But I'd sure like to find me
A true, fine love
Someone another
That's as sweet as your mother
A true, fine love

Cause the time is right
For walking in the moonlight
I have suddenly found I'm ready to settle down
So come on get your rocks off
I'm gonna knock your socks off

You'll see, oh yeah
So come on pretty baby
We're going to raise a family

There'll be no hesitatin'
Cause I'm so tired of waitin'
For a true, fine love
Someone another
Like a sister or brother
A true, fine love

Cause the time is right
For walking in the moonlight
I have suddenly found I'm ready to settle down
So come on get your rocks off
I'm gonna knock your socks off

You'll see, oh yeah
So come on pretty baby
We gonna raise a family

Well I ain't complainin'
But I'd sure like to find me
A true, fine love
Someone another
That's as sweet as your mother
A true, fine love

Cause the time is right
For walking in the moonlight
I have suddenly found I'm ready to settle down
We'll have a boy for you, we'll have a girl for me
Come on baby raise a family

So come on get your socks off
I'm gonna knock your rocks off

Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand

Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand
Six Hundred Minutes
Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand
Moments SO Dear
Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand
Six Hundred Minutes
How Do You Measure - Measure A Year?
In Daylights - In Sunsets
In Midnights - In Cups Of Coffee
In Inches - In Miles
In Laughter - In Strife

In - Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand
Six Hundred Minutes
How Do You Measure
A Year In The Life

How About Loooooooove?
How About Loooooooove?
How About Loooooooove?
Measure In Love

Seasons Of Love
Seasons Of Love

Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand
Six Hundred Minutes
Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand
Journeys To Plan

Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand
Six Hundred Minutes
How Do You Measure The Life
Of A Woman Or A Man?

In Truths That She Learned
Or In Times That He Cried
In Bridges He Burned
Or The Way That She Died

It's Time Now - To Sing Out
Tho' The Story Never Ends
Let's Celebrate
Remember A Year In The Life Of Friends

Remember The Loooooooove
Remember The Loooooooove
Remember The Loooooooove
Measure In Love

Measure, Measure Your Life In Love

ohhhhh!!!!
Seasons Of Love...
Seasons Of Love

They say I'm goin' crazy

Can anybody find me somebody to love?
Each morning I get up I die a little
Can barely stand on my feet
Take a look in the mirror and cry
Lord what you're doing to me
I have spent all my years in believing you
But I just can't get no relief, Lord!
Somebody, somebody
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

I work hard every day of my life
I work till I ache my bones
At the end I take home my hard earned pay all on my own -
I get down on my knees
And I start to pray
Till the tears run down from my eyes
Lord - somebody - somebody
Can anybody find me - somebody to love?

(He works hard)

Everyday - I try and I try and I try -
But everybody wants to put me down
They say I'm goin' crazy
They say I got a lot of water in my brain
Got no common sense
I got nobody left to believe
Yeah - yeah yeah yeah

Oh Lord
Somebody - somebody
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

Got no feel, I got no rhythm
I just keep losing my beat
I'm ok, I'm alright
Ain't gonna face no defeat
I just gotta get out of this prison cell
Someday I'm gonna be free, Lord!

Find me somebody to love
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

The time is right to put my arms around you

Last night I had a dream about you
In this dream I'm dancing right beside you
And it looked like everyone was having fun
the kind of feeling I've waited so long

Don't stop come a little closer
As we jam the rythm gets stronger
There's nothing wrong with just a little little fun
We were dancing all night long

The time is right to put my arms around you
You're feeling right
You wrap your arms around too
But suddenly I feel the shining sun
Before I knew it this dream was all gone

Ooh I don't know what to do
About this dream and you
I wish this dream comes true

Ooh I don't know what to do
About this dream and you
We'll make this dream come true

Why don't you play the game ?
Why don't you play the game ?

All you need

Love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love.
There's nothing you can do that can't be done.
Nothing you can sing that can't be sung.
Nothing you can say but you can learn how to play the game
It's easy.
There's nothing you can make that can't be made.
No one you can save that can't be saved.
Nothing you can do but you can learn how to be in time
It's easy.
All you need is love, all you need is love,
All you need is love, love, love is all you need.
Love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love.
All you need is love, all you need is love,
All you need is love, love, love is all you need.
There's nothing you can know that isn't known.
Nothing you can see that isn't shown.
Nowhere you can be that isn't where you're meant to be.
It's easy.
All you need is love, all you need is love,
All you need is love, love, love is all you need.
All you need is love (all together now)
All you need is love (everybody)
All you need is love, love, love is all you need.

You're my everlasting groove

We had a million of days
I know that our time has run out
You?re my everlasting groove
Forget the past for the time to come
In all our thoughts and we will meet again
Never leave me out here in the cold
I sing for my never-ending dream

Love in december
I will always remember
Our summer with passion, a fatal attraction
Colours are fading like the leaves in november
What?s left of the magic ?

We had a million of days
I know that our time has run out.
You?re my everlasting groove
Forget the past for the time to come
In all our thoughts and we will meet again
Never leave me out here in the cold
I sing for my never-ending dream

Love in december
I will always remember
Our summer with passion, a fatal attraction
Colours are fading like the leaves in november
What?s left of the magic we felt in the springtime ?

Cause there?s a place in the world I know
Where I?d rather would be
In the fairy-tales of love
Where everthing has a happy end
I would my friend in fantasia-land
We could be together all the time
My dear in the fairytales of love

Love in december...

For a moment a touch could feel
Like a vision of an angel
Has our love and desire disappeared forever ?
-mmm
Always longing to have you near
Feel the power and the passion
Feel me slipping from your hands
Please break my fall

Love in december...

Love in december...

Love in december...

She

She
May be the face I can't forget
A trace of pleasure or regret
May be my treasure or the price I have to pay
She may be the song that summer sings
May be the chill that autumn brings
May be a hundred tearful things
Within the measure of the day.

She
May be the beauty or the beast
May be the famine or the feast
May turn each day into heaven or a hell
She may be the mirror of my dreams
A smile reflected in a stream
She may not be what she may seem
Inside a shell

She who always seems so happy in a crowd
Whose eyes can be so private and so proud
No one's allowed to see them when they cry
She may be the love that can and hope to last
May come to me from shadows of the past
That I remember till the day I die

She
May be the reason I survive
The why and where for I'm alive
The one I'll care for through the rough and rainy years
Me I'll take her laughter and her tears
And make them all my souvenirs
For where she goes I got to be
The meaning of my life is

She, she, she

I feel good

Whoa-oa-oa! I feel good, I knew that I would, now
I feel good, I knew that I would, now
So good, so good, I got you

Whoa! I feel nice, like sugar and spice
I feel nice, like sugar and spice
So nice, so nice, I got you

{ sax, two licks to bridge }

When I hold you in my arms
I know that I can't do no wrong
and when I hold you in my arms
My love won't do you no harm

and I feel nice, like sugar and spice
I feel nice, like sugar and spice
So nice, so nice, I got you

{ sax, two licks to bridge }

When I hold you in my arms
I know that I can't do no wrong
and when I hold you in my arms
My love can't do me no harm

and I feel nice, like sugar and spice
I feel nice, like sugar and spice
So nice, so nice, well I got you

Whoa!
I feel good, I knew that I would, now
I feel good, I knew that I would
So good, so good, 'cause I got you
So good, so good, 'cause I got you
So good, so good, 'cause I got you
--

Thursday, December 08, 2005

Imagine... It's easy if you try,

Imagine

Imagine there's no heaven,
It's easy if you try,
No hell below us,
Above us only sky,
Imagine all the people
living for today...

Imagine there's no countries,
It isnt hard to do,
Nothing to kill or die for,
No religion too,
Imagine all the people
living life in peace...

Imagine no possesions,
I wonder if you can,
No need for greed or hunger,
A brotherhood of man,
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...

You may say Im a dreamer,
but Im not the only one,
I hope some day you'll join us,
And the world will live as one.

John Lennon, (October 9, 1940 ? December 8, 1980),

In the late afternoon of December 8, 1980, in New York City, deranged fan Mark David Chapman met Lennon as he left for the recording studio and got his copy of Double Fantasy autographed; the event of Lennon signing one of his last autographs was caught by a photographer who witnessed this goodwill gesture. Chapman remained in the vicinity of The Dakota for most of the day as a fireworks demonstration in nearby Central Park distracted the doorman and passers-by.

In my book...

being bipolar is not an excuse for pretending to have a bomb, especially if you di said thing on near or around airplanes. SERIOUSLY!!!

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

Pardon my language...

...but the weather, for tomorrow, seems to be going from piss cold to Witch's tit
Tyler, TX WeatherBrisk and colder with increasing amounts of sunshine.
Winds from the NNW at 12 mph.
High: 36° F
RealFeel: 27° F
Tyler, TX WeatherThursday Night: Clear and quite cold.
Winds from the N at 4 mph.
Low: 19° F
RealFeel: 22° F

Tell me that isn't cold. However it keeps changing so we'll see...

Always look on the bright side of life.

Everyone. The most depressing Christmas cartoon ever is called Peace of Earth, though on some tapes or television networks it may be called Good will to men. Either way it is quite depressing and kind of funny.

However it is very good.

If you know me and want to watch I suggest you come on over and I will watch and you can watch. Everyone else, FIND IT YOURSELF!!

=B=

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

Cold Weather

Wednesday, Dec 7[Details/AccuPOP]
Tyler, TX WeatherCloudy and chilly; a chance for a rain or snow shower in the a.m.,
then snow or flurries possible.
Winds from the NE at 9 mph.
High: 42� F
RealFeel: 38� F
Tyler, TX WeatherWednesday Night: A rain and snow shower possible in the evening;
otherwise, mostly cloudy and very cold.
Winds from the N at 10 mph.
Low: 28� F
RealFeel: 20� F
Thursday, Dec 8[Details/AccuPOP]
Tyler, TX WeatherClouds giving way to a brightening sky and chilly.
Winds from the N at 15 mph.
High: 43� F
RealFeel: 33� F
Tyler, TX WeatherThursday Night: Mainly clear and very cold.
Winds from the NNE at 10 mph.
Low: 22� F
RealFeel: 15� F

We will have fun both of these days.

Monday, December 05, 2005

Pong Creator Loves Nintendo Controller

(If you can't read German, I apologize for the link in the title)

Apperantly at the 2005 Digital Interactive Entertainment Conference Nolan Bushnell Creator of Pong said he LOVED the Nintendo Revolution Controller.

"The 3D Controller from Nintendo is a very good idea. If one looks at today's controllers with their triangles, crosses, squares and circles, that is uncanny. That is like a keyboard. Humans are interface Phobish."

(Rough translation, but basically what he said).

Seven Seas Of Rhye

Fear me you lords and lady preachers
I descend upon your earth from the skies
I command your very souls you unbelievers
Bring before me what is mine
The seven seas of Rhye

Can you hear me you peers and privy councillors
I stand before you naked to the eyes
I will destroy any man who dares abuse my trust
I swear that you'll be mine
At the seven seas of Rhye

Sister I live and lie for you
Mister do and I'll die
You are mine I possess you
Belong to you forever

Storm the master marathon I'll fly through
By flash and thunder fire I'll survive
I'll survive I'll survive
Then I'll defy the laws of nature
And come out alive

Begone with you you shod and shady senators
Give out the good, leave out the bad evil cries
I challenge the mighty titan and his troubadours
And with a smile
I'll take you to the seven seas of Rhye

This is my favorite Queen Song. Not so much for the lyrics, but the music.
So Good.
Also in case you are wondering I prefer the one from Queen II as that is the one that actually had lyrics. The one from Queen I is good to listen to, but not the same. Though still good.

Because

Because the world is round it turns me on
Because the world is round...aaaaaahhhhhh

Because the wind is high it blows my mind
Because the wind is high......aaaaaaaahhhh

Love is all, love is new
Love is all, love is you

Because the sky is blue, it makes me cry
Because the sky is blue.......aaaaaaaahhhh

Aaaaahhhhhhhhhh....

Sure, this may not seem like that good of a song, but it is. It is...
Now imagine if you will, in a tribute album this was sung by Alice Cooper.
Now that, that is cool....

Sunday, December 04, 2005

San Fransisco is doing well

How 'bout that?

All right, sure they are behind right now, as I write this, but they have a chance and they CAN do it.

Somethings are probably better kept to oneself

Seriously, lets see...

Hmmm......

Yeah, why? I dunno, but um well, can't take it back.

=Me=

It is still 2005 Right?

In April 2008, Spike TV will become the first broadcast network in the U.S. to air all six Star Wars movies on the same network, including holding premiere broadcast rights to Episode III: Revenge of the Sith. Spike TV beat out NBC Universal and Turner Broadcasting for the lucrative deal (worth up to $80 million, although most of the two network systems had previously aired some or all of the Original Trilogy films).

So I was reading this on Spike TVs Wikipedia Page.

HOW, WHY?

3 Years?

=Ben=

Saturday, December 03, 2005

I'll admit it

I like Christmas...

Texas V. Col

Okay, now if you are watching the game. Seriously 70 - 3

They just need to call this game and NOW

No reason to even have a Fourth Quarter.

Colorado should get their Bus ready and just leave at the end of the quarter...

Friday, December 02, 2005

Ass hattery 101

1) Bend down forward until face meets crotch
2) Arch back even more until crown of head reaches rectum
3) Vigorously push head into rectum. If possible until bridge of nose meets your anus.
4) Smile, you're an ass hat now.

Thursday, December 01, 2005

Coughing up a lung there boss

It gets worse and worse as time goes on. I hope I get better by the weekend, the last thing I want to do is spend all my time in bed.

I am sorry for hi-jacking the blog, with my illness, but I have nothing else to talk about.

Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Still feel horrible

My Face still feels horrible.

Can't breath through the nose.

...........

Got class in an hour.

Gonna suck.

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

I feel like crap

So, like yeah.

I still feel horrible.

I am going to go to sleep and hope to get better by tomorrow.

Why do people have to be stupid

I just want one day, one day, one GOD DAMN day that I don't have to deal with any stupid people.

Is that too much to ask?

IS IT?

=B=

Folding @ Home

Folding @ Home is a worldwide community effort researching the causes, and cures, for various diseases due to the improper folding sequences of protein molecules. Motherboards.org has formed a Folding @ Home distributed computing team for members and visitors alike to join. We ask that everyone please join and donate your spare CPU cycles to help benefit Stanford University's Folding @ Home project. Together we can make a difference! This Folding @ Home flash presentation explains how.

How Do I Join?

  1. Determine your operating system.
  2. Decide upon the type of client that suits your needs. There is a screensaver version that uses spare CPU cycles when your screensaver runs. There is a higher performance graphical client, as well as a no-nonsense console/text version.
  3. Download the desired client.
  4. Run the client and have the team number 33258 handy during the install process in addition to your username. Follow the installation guide for your specific operating system, and the client type that you've decided upon.

What is protein folding and how is folding linked to disease? Proteins are biology's workhorses -- its "nanomachines." Before proteins can carry out these important functions, they assemble themselves, or "fold." The process of protein folding, while critical and fundamental to virtually all of biology, in many ways remains a mystery.

Moreover, when proteins do not fold correctly (i.e. "misfold"), there can be serious consequences, including many well known diseases, such as Alzheimer's, Mad Cow (BSE), CJD, ALS, Huntington's, Parkinson's disease, and many Cancers and cancer-related syndromes.

You can help by simply running a piece of software. Folding@Home is a distributed computing project -- people from through out the world download and run software to band together to make one of the largest supercomputers in the world. Every computer makes the project closer to our goals.

Folding@Home uses novel computational methods coupled to distributed computing, to simulate problems thousands to millions of times more challenging than previously achieved.

Just remember to contribute to TEAM #: 33258

Monday, November 28, 2005

In Soviet Russia

Yakof Smirnoff is a funny man...got love this stuff.

Just click on the link damnit.

Sunday, November 27, 2005

Story Time volume. 1

Hello and welcome, to what will become, shortly, a regular thing here in the blog. A time when I tell you a story, except this time it is all fake. However it will still include observations I have made about things.

Today's story: The Attacker

So it was a very long time ago that a small village in the hills of Newfoundland were being terrorized at night. The villagers had little defense from these attacks. They happened without warning and cause. Or so they assumed anyway. Something close to a dozen people, well really women and children, were kidnapped from the village. After each attack men from the village would look and look and look for them. However none were found.

However one night, the villagers being pompous asses, exploited one of the women into being a decoy. So they could finally figure out who the attacker was and hopefully stop them from doing what they were doing. Close to midnight the attacker struck and being to burn buildings at the other end of town. Quickly the attacker then went for the women who was "asleep" under a tree. Of course this was too tempting for the attacker.

The attacker went for the women and just as soon as he got close, shots were fired from all over. He was dead. So was the women due to poor accuracy. The others were never heard from again, because they didn't think to ask questions and shoot later, instead of shooting first and then hoping to ask questions.

Eventually the colony died because there were only three women left and 6 children 4 of which were guys. However there were close to 40 men. As you can "that" just doesn't work.

Well that was the first gripping, nonsensical story.

Interesting site

Go to the site in the link title. It is a website run by my uncle and his friend.

You might find it amusing. GO and see it now.

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Sometimes things don't work out

Well I recently got into some fickle issue with my bank account. Something about a TLG or Trilegiant. As I belive the company is called.

But thankfully my bank is a nice people. So all will hopefully be worked as best as possible.


Also catch the last day of the Thanksgiving Bond-a-thon on Spike today.

GOOD SHTUFF.

=Me=

Friday, November 25, 2005

Funny TV Guide

I was flipping through the TV guide thing on my grandma's cable box. (She has Time Warner cable). Anyway, there is at the time of me writing this a posting for Star Wars Episode II: Attack of the clones.
It says Amazing special effects make up for the stilted dialogue and wooden acting.
HILARIOUS.

Well, they still won

They won, but not by as much as I wanted and not by a shut out. Either way they still won.

BTW, A&M Suxxors

Texas vs TX A&M

Okay, so we're still in the second half right now and it looks like Texas has this one. Sure there have been a few issues, but they will score another 46 points. Why? Because I said so. Also A&M has to lose. That is just the way it is. More updates at half time or next long commerical break.

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Turkey Day

Well depending on where you are and when you read this it is on or about Thanksgiving.

I just wanted to say something again, but I forget. I am mainly using this post a bunch today.

I find when I am bored I post more to the blog.

Also don't forget the recent change.

Of course if you didn't know about, well you wouldn't know about it.

I've done the old man proud...maybe?!?

I am free of all prejudice. I hate everyone equally.
W. C. Fields
US actor (1880 - 1946)

All right so here are ten more quotes from the master:
A thing worth having is a thing worth cheating for.

Horse sense is the thing a horse has which keeps it from betting on people.

I always keep a supply of stimulant handy in case I see a snake--which I also keep handy.

I never vote for anyone; I always vote against.

I've never struck a woman in my life, not even my own mother.

Reminds me of my safari in Africa. Somebody forgot the corkscrew and for several days we had to live on nothing but food and water.

Some weasel took the cork out of my lunch.

Start every day off with a smile and get it over with.

Last week, I went to Philadelphia, but it was closed.

Funny stuff. There is more, but I have neither the patience or want to search for more.
Please enjoy the change because one letter does make a difference.

Never rely on fools

Okay, so I don't know what is going on, but um, yeah.

Not a happy camper right now.

All right then.

Microsoft Fouls Up Again

I have to say I trust the source and think it is funny.

Click the link in the title, I don't want to give anything away, except if they were any other company they would be going bankrupt.

Simpsons, funny...

I just saw a funny Simpsons episode...

Ms. Krabopel: You and I are too different
Comic Book Guy: I don't understand
Ms. Krabopel: It's like I am D.C. Comics and you are Marvel
Comic Book Guy: I totally understand
Comic Book Guy then looks very sad.

So FUNNY.

Also that might not be an exact quote, but like I can remember anything.

Alias.....gone.....for.....good.....8-<

Well, it is official now....

Oh well...


It was such a good show...

Oh well....


Just thought you should know...

Oh well...

Giggidy Giggidy Goo

Anyway, humorous post I liked it.

Now to attempt to top it.

This is what would happen if Whitson had a baby with well how am I kidding, his genes are as good as dead....

Anyway, I am now at my grandmothers and hopefully my home pc is still running, *nudge* *wink* *cough* *poke*

So until whenever, ciao!!

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Happy Thanksgiving, a little early....

if you are American anyway. You know America isn't the only country that celebrates a thanksgiving.

Anyway. Just wanted to get that out there and whatever. Either it is just too early, or my readers don't care, but I have yet to get Hatemail for my below posts.

I also managed to sleep a little, but now wish I hadn't woken up until 10. Oh well. I am going to Eat some breakfast.

Anyway have a good Thanksgiving holiday and stuff. Also try not to get beaten, killed or run over during your black Friday shopping. I don't plan on doing any, but I know a lot of you will.

What is the deal with certain ethnic groups?

I don't consider myself a racist, but I have made several observations about things in general. I don't mean to offend anyone by what I am saying, but I can't help it. If you are offended, however, tough.


You scored as A little. Haha.. You're a little of one. Not that bad though. You mostly just joke about it to be funny.

A little


50%

Yes


40%

Not at all


40%

Are you racist????
created with QuizFarm.com

These are the results from the quizfarm quiz linked to in the title.
Well, there you go. But anyway, my observations:

First, lots of black people/African Americans/whatever you want to call them seem to rap/sing/whatever about things that most people probably don't consider a good thing. First there are songs which contain horrible things about women, I mean extremely derogatory things. I find these things dispicable. Then there are songs which are also extremely sexually explicit in nature. As well as songs that are heavily influenced by violent acts against others, police officers and the like and again women. Why would anyone seem to glorify these things? I certainly can't understand it.

Second, Asians (Though I can't really put them all in one group I am because well I don't any better and it is funnier this way.) are so damn confusing. Now don't take that wrong way, but so frequently I find that asian people are torn between old customs and an assimilation into the Western U.S. type culture. So there are so many confusing things happening. I don't know, I can't come up with anything specific. But, you know what I mean don't you.

Third, gay people, homosexuals primarly though lesbians and maybe transexuals or other genderqueer people could be put in this too, are so damn flamboyant and at the same time not. Let me put that a better way. Usually many of them are quite flamboyant, but to frequently they are so damn subtle in their mannerisms. Basically what I am trying to say it is too damn difficult to tell if someone is gay nowadays. It isn't that I am looking for gay people. However, I am trying to say that they should be easier to identify. Basically so I can make fun of them. Someone should make a practical functioning gaydar. Seriously, wouldn't that be cool.

Fourth, illegal immigrants, any and all of them, even if I already mentioned them in some other group, are just crap. Look I don't care what anyone says. In the long run the economy would be doing a lot better if there were no illegal immigrants. Sure there are some who even pay taxes, but most don't. Most illegal immigrants just suck money from people who could be making it, people who would work an honest days work. It just angers me so.

Finally, leading up to this from the previous, Americans are so damn annoying. Now don't yell at me yet, read what I have to say. First get off your damn high horses, all of you on all rungs of the economic ladder. Just because you think a job is below you or demeaning or plain awful doesn't mean it is. A job is a job. You need to understand that is one of the reasons people don't see illegals for the evil and horror that they are. I don't mean to go to that extreme, but I will. Look, an other thing is this. Terrorists and the like are not all the same people. Just because terrorists reside in a country, whether the country admits it or not, does not mean that every person in the country is a fricking terrorist, OK? There are good people in these countries. So Carpet bombing or the like is not a prudent action. You know when Hitler killed a selective group of people, most people HATED IT. Yet when it is proposed in some manner by so Americans, it seems okay? WHY? Why do we hold this double standard. Is it because when it happens to us its different. That shouldn't be it.

Look, I may have gotten off track, but I just get so angry about these things. Me the pessimist who sees the world as a total evil. Oh well. I am going to go now. Now you can yell at me and send me your hate mail. Because I know it is going to come.

Ciao, =B=

New Blogger.....

Well, I have now found someone to aid me in blogging and after correcting their email address, they should begin blogging anytime after they accept my invitation to be a member of the blog.

At least I think it works that way.

Well happy blogging for all of the 2 readers of this blog. Well for all I know there are regulars, but I don't believe it.

WHY CAN I NOT SLEEP, STILL?

I just want to fall asleep sometime between midnight and 1 A.M. Yet I can not do it. I can not find the ability to keep myself in a neutral state. I just want to sleep. Sleep for atleast 6 hours. Wake up sometime before 7 A.M.

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Okay, so besides that. I keep getting headaches. That might be related to inability to sleep at night. I should interject that I can fall asleep as soon as dawn brakes. As soon as I see the beginning of a blue sky I somehow become able to sleep, just like that. However just minutes earlier, nothing.

Further I have been suffering from intermittent heartburn. I don't think that is related to my sleep, more so my diet. However I am not ruling anything out.

Well atleast I can find slightly entertaining things on TV at what is now 3:15 in the morning. Of course it all depends on your opinion of good. I am watching the Cosby show.

I realise it might make for bad, well lots of things, but I think after the show ends I will take a shower. That might help me sleep.

Well that is all for now, though I am going to make at least 1 possibly two more posts, that you'll read first because they will be above this one, so you already know that I wrote them.

Sunday, November 20, 2005

Spike TV Farmed it up again

Jesus, why the hell were games that weren't even released yet in some of the categories? What the Farm, I mean seriously.

They don't get it do they. First of all no one wants to hear some rapper at the video game awards, most people would like objective results, most people would NOT like games in certain categories, (LIKE GAME OF THE FARMING YEAR) if they HAVE NOT BEEN FARMING RELEASED YET, and of course most people would LOVE to see anyone other than SPIKE TV doing video game awards. HELL even G4, would in some small way be a better choice.

YOU PEOPLE SUCK. I HOPE ALL THE PEOPLE INVOLVED IN THE VIDEO GAME AWARDS GET BIRD FLU AND DIE. YOU BASTARDS. STOP TORTURING US WITH YOUR CRAP. STOP RUINING OUR HOBBY AND OUR INDUSTRY!!

Monday, November 14, 2005

Some questions

Why does Fox News call Suicide Bombers, Homocide Bombers? Sure they do kill other people, but more importantly they kill themselves, and whether you want to admit it or not they become marters for their cause. Ignoring that fact won't make it go away.

Why do some people think that just because I have a bald head, (that is shaved), that I am in some way sick, (as in ill not the other conotation)? Is it really a good idea to assume that I have cancer or some disease? Perhaps I just like my nice shaved head.

Sleep is a wonderful thing, but why is it I am not getting any? At this point I have been awake for 24 hours, give or take a couple of minutes. I mean seriously. I need my ZZZZs, my hours, my REM.

Why do tests have to be so close together? Is it just a conspiracy or is there any valid reason why Professors clump all their tests around the same days? I am so angry to that regard, however I some how accept it.

Any way, now I am going to just sit down on my bed, then proceed to lie down and possibly sleep. My legs almost gave out earlier. That would not have been funny.

Sunday, November 13, 2005

Yup

I am watching Grey's Anatomy right now.

I watched Fox before that, except that stupid show between the Simpons and Family Guy.

Either way, tonight is probably going to be an all nighter. Got some stuff due tomorrow. Haven't really done it yet. That is started.

So I cleaned my room up real nice. Except of course for a few things.

So guys, I want you to know I can be found on Facebook. If you know what Facebook and you know my name you can search me out.

I am going to go to the bathroom now and come back to do some stuff and then get cracking on that math assignment.

=Teh Management=

Hmmmm

So, I still can't sleep. I have two more pills, but don't want to take them. When I take the pills I sleep TOO long.

What is wrong with me.

Anyway. I am using my ample time to clean my room. Excessively.

However I can't vaccuum as that would wake and annoy my roomates and possibly the people below and above me.

I am watching Nick@Nite right now. Fresh Prince of Bel Air is on...

I was watching CNN earlier, but they just showed the same Larry King for the third time and well Larry King is good, but three times is rather annoying.

I am going to resort my CDs, DVDs, and Video Games in their respectives disc carriers.

Well off to do that now. Bye...

Sunday, November 06, 2005

Oh boy

Boondocks was good, Minoriteam was interesting as well.

I look forward to new eps I think.

WEST WING

Today's West Wing was teh Awsome.

I think that Sorkin has another emmy to put on his shelf from this one.

Good Stuff.

Mon Dec. 5, at 9/8C

I don't know why I am making this post but I am.

I am using the term Melon Farmer a whole lot lately, and that is litterally what I am saying, not you know two other words which actually is what Melon Farmer means.

Also, SF keeps losing, it is very depressing. I don't know why I keep watching and rooting for them.

They are losing right now 10-6, perhaps there is a chance.

Still eating that Maruchan Instant Lunch.

I need to name my Gorilla. I am thinking of a name, but nothing comes up.

Got some soup cooking in the other room.

Tommorrow I want to go to class, but don't know if I will be awake.

Oh well, enough for now, just remember to watch West Wing and Boondocks tonight. Good Stuff, eh!!

Friday, November 04, 2005

Happy Friday After Halloween

Okay, so I am really just posting due to lack of posts.

Anyway, I would've posted more, but needless to say I am a dumbass, and am currently experiencing difficulties with installing windows and SATA. So we'll see what happens there.

Monday, October 31, 2005

Happy Halloween!

So losers, today is Halloween.

My costume - I am wearing a surgical mask and have a sign around my neck stating:
I HAVE SARS

AVIAN FLU

Seriously though this is just a costume, lets not get carried away.

I will assume that someone will get carried away and assume I am being serious. Sometimes asshats don't know the difference between a good joke and reality.

Anyway, take a lot of candy from strangers. Also try not to get run over if you dressed up as an invisible pedestrian.

Saturday, October 29, 2005

Diphenhydramine HCl

Diphenhydramine HCl is a wondeful little thing. Basically two 25mg tablets allow the user to sleep. How Wonderful.

Last night was the first night, aside from 1 other night, though it didn't count because I woke up at 1 AM, where I fell asleep before Midnight and stayed asleep until the morning hours. I woke up at 6ish, to turn off my cell phone and managed to go back to sleep until 10~11ish.

I am quite happy. Hopefully tonight I can sleep as well. If not I have two more tablets.

I am usually against medicine that isn't prescribed, but I must say I am very pleased with this stuff. Honestly, if you can't sleep, use some Diphenhydramine HCl it works.

BPM

Songs with less than 120BPM are rather annoying.

So I have noticed anyway. I am only playing beginner courses, being a beginner in my own right. I have found I do better on songs with great than 120BPM. Those with less than 120BPM, well let us just say I get a lot of Good and Great pop up a lot. I usually hit the button corresponding to the arrow way to quickly.

Faster songs are easier for me. I can more easily attain the beat, if you will. Though anything past 160 begins to get a little challenging. Let's just say I have tried my skill at non beginner songs. To that point, half beats, confusing as hell, especially with a keyboard. I don't even see how you could do that with a dance pad. A controller perhaps.

I am sure there is still much for me to learn. All I know is I just love the music. The songs are all good. I am glad.

Friday, October 28, 2005

Whatever

I will from this point on send now updates about my blog. If you do not already regularly attend, then you don't care.

For those who do read this crap, thanks.

=The Management=

Thursday, October 27, 2005

Stepmania

I am pleased as punch. Perhaps, I don't know. It is a good thing.

Stepmania, is an excellent distraction. Not to mention a good DDR Sim.

I am playing bunches. Good Fun.

Let's Dancing.

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

What the hell?

Why the frak would Americans on VACATION, yes VACATION, expect jack diddly squat from the government.

Look, unless it is a sudden war zone, too damn bad.

YOU CHOSE TO BE THERE.

YOU CHOSE TO PUT YOURSELF IN THE POSITION YOU WERE IN.

THE GOVERNMENT HAS ABSOLUTELY NO, REPEAT NO, OBLIGATION TO GETTING YOUR AMERICAN ASS BACK HOME.

But don't worry, your actions and stupid words have caused the political and more importantly the bureaucratic process to turn the wheel a notch or two. So by the time air travel continues in the places you were stranded. Buses will be on their way to pick your fat asses up.

I mean Christ, why the hell do you have to complain. Look a little rain and structural damage shouldn't ruin your vacation. Learn to make the best of a horrible situation.

Also next time vacation somewhere better, or just say home, stupid.

See crap like this is what bothers me so much. YOU people make me sick. It is like, "OH NO!, we are stranded in a company where our language and money isn't the normal thing, what are we gonna do. Let us complain to the news and say we "desperately" need help.

You don't need help, just a ride back home.

YOU WANNA KNOW WHO DOES NEED HELP?
The MEXICAN citizens who live in the resort towns you s**t all over and assume that they are there only for your amusement. They need help. Many of them probably lost their homes. They live there, YOU DON'T. GET OVER IT.

For once, please understand the following, AMERICANS ARE NOT ALWAYS MOST IMPORTANT. Or perhaps a religious example? You aren't going to a different heaven/hell then the guy whose name you mispronounced every time you worded a margarita.

Thank you, I have said my peace.

Sunday, October 23, 2005

Okay, so let me ask you this....

Do you read this "fine" publication.

I will within the the next 30 minutes send another of my delightful emails to you. If you are still awake and check your email 40+ times a day as I do you'll see this today, assuming you aren't on the East Coast in which case it is tomorrow as I right this.

Either way I will not post anything for two days after this. I want you the reader to post a comment any comment under this post. I just want a vauge idea if anyone visits.

=Ben=

P.S. If there is something major that happens I will be forced to post, but regardless, just whatever....

Saturday, October 22, 2005

Davis-Bacon Act

Well, I keep hearing about this thing, but didn't know what it was, so I did some reading on Wikipedia (link in title). Well first, it seems that the Bill was made to as sort of a racist law, imho. If you read it, you'll see that it mentions that some people were very upset due to some african americans being contracted to do something. Of course that was in 1927, so it unfortunately makes sense in that time period.

Anyway, the bill itself entitles that the workers be paid "prevailing wages" which seems to mean whatever is properly set for the circumstance for the bill and possibly other benefits. Meaning the workers will probably get the pay they expect.

So it seems that with the act being suspended, hopefully only temporarily, this would allow contractors to legally 1) Pay their current employees less for the same work or 2) Get cheaper new employees all together.

So how is that good for the economy? I mean if people who get too much money, in the opinion of their employers, get the boot for cheaper labor, possibly immigrant or illegal workers, where does this allow for the economy in that region to get better?

I'd love to hear someone explain it to me. Logically it makes no sense. Sure the company gets to save more the federal money it keeps to line its pockets so the execs can have that trickle down effect crap going for them, but again I don't buy that either.

Why can't this country's companies let their workers work for the proper wage for the job being done? Is profit and bottom line really that important. Have we reached the point where the worker means nothing to the company, but a nuisance that must be worked to the bone until the lost drop of effort can be squeezed out for a petty wage that could be so much more?

Look, I don't know what the companies are thinking, but by outsourcing and firing, that is the word after all (none of the pink slip laying off bull), employees they can't expect their domestic sales to go up because their former employees don't have the income to purchase the product they were formally involved with.

Obviously something is not computing on one end or another.

This is so stupid. Look, pay your employees a more than fair wage, their productivity (will/could/may/should/might = pick one) increase. If that occurs your bottom line should still be above the red. You only have to make a profit not a killer one. You only have to make enough to contine not make so much more that you don't know what to do with it.

Instead you pay just enough or less, your employee's productivity (will/could/may/should/might = pick one) be just enough. If that occurs your bottom line will most definitely be above the red, but your employees will hate you. You make so much money all the execs who probably have little to do with your extra income will get fat bonuses those down below might get a bit here and there.

Why? Is money that damn important? After all, we're all gonna die, keep that in mind. Now me I don't care, but from what I understand about most popular religions, your wealth won't make you any better off in the after life, should you believe in that hokey.

What can I say, you probably didn't even read it this far or ever read it. Shame on you
Go on make your profit. Just ask yourself why is it so important?

Syria. Iraq II: This time its legit ??

http://www9.sbs.com.au/theworldnews/region.php?id=123622&region=6
http://www.forbes.com/finance/feeds/afx/2005/10/21/afx2292460.html
http://www.zmag.org/content/showarticle.cfm?SectionID=72&ItemID=8967
http://www.alertnet.org/thenews/newsdesk/L21569455.htm
http://english.aljazeera.net/NR/exeres/F2389AD4-BDD0-4598-AA46-8B4B54C9D101.htm
http://www.theconservativevoice.com/articles/article.html?id=9135
http://today.reuters.com/news/newsArticle.aspx?type=politicsNews&storyID=2005-10-21T150221Z_01_ROB152841_RTRUKOC_0_US-LEBANON-SYRIA-UN.xml
http://www.leadingthecharge.com/stories/news-0088780.html

There is also a link in the title.

I don't I have been reading up on this, but all I can say is I don't see anything good.

Read for yourself, draw your own opinion tell me about it.

Friday, October 21, 2005

I am full

I just ate 4 very thin rib eye steaks thanks to my Foreman grill. I coated them with a "thin" layer of A1. I had a side of corn.

I have to say that was an enjoyable meal.

I am sweating

I don't know why, but it is very hot in my room. I am going to check the thermometer and see what it is set for. Also I have been drinking green tea. Hot green tea and about 2 Liters worth at that. So that could be why I think it is hot. Who knows. Just thought I would inform you.

I am so happy

I was finally able to do something I haven't been able to do in a long long time.

I am sorry

Look, nevermind why, but just forget what I have posted about the contest. It is pointless.

Thursday, October 20, 2005

Can't sleep again

Today, I didn't get any sleep, usually I end up falling asleep around 4ish and unfortunately waking up at noonish. However it is 5:24 as I write this and NOTHING. I just took a shower and am about to do all of my other morning things for lack of a better thing to do.

Can someone please explain to me why I am doing this to myself.

Is it lack of exposure to the "real world?" You know I do spend almost all my time inside of buildings except when I commute from building to building.

I just don't know.

I would love to fall asleep around Midnight and make up at 6 again. It would be so NICE.

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

Nightmares

Look, I don't know....
Maybe I am just making this up in my mind's eye, but I have to come up with some reason for it, that is my lack of sleep.

First I still blame the money. However, I always become restless during what I consider the middle of the lunar cycle. I just know it has some strange effect on me.

Second I think I ma having nightmares and to keep myself from reliving them I am stopping myself from sleeping as much as I can. However I can't verify this as I have no recollection of my own dreams.

I think I did catch one dream this morning, but I don't know. I was investigating a murder or something and I ended up seeing a bunch of dead children everywhere. eeeee.....

I know, but I guess that makes some sort of sense, to explain my lack of sleep, maybe...

Saturday, October 15, 2005

The Shape of Things to Come

We must prepare for the unknown experiences of the unexplored frontier.

The future grows more and mor murky, prepare for it now, or be swallowed up by it later.

The uneventful events that will transpire will cause mass panic and fear, but also a great welcoming.

In the end the prepared and those less fortunate will embrace the randomness of their destiny and the infinite probabilities of fate.

The universe will be wrought with something that it can not contain.

We can only hope that things will work out

Friday, October 14, 2005

Insult Me

I am holding a contest of sorts, in which you the reader win nothing, but satisfaction.

Until the end of the month, I want people to insult me. I want good insults too. The purpose, you see is to make me cry. I want to see if it can be done. I want an insult so heinous I begin to ball with tears. Can you do it? I think not. Remember you have until the end of the month.

=Ben=

DO YOUR WORST, I've heard it all.

One stipulation, please keep it clean. Try to insult without sware words. If you really want to insult me you shouldn't need to sware.

EDIT (10/15/2005): Either post your insults as comments or email them to warbenekar1@gmail.com with Insult and/or Blog in the subject line. Thanks.

=Ben=

EDIT(10/22/2005): The contest has been called on account that both no one has participated as of yet and my own stupidity.

Moon Phases

I am giving you, the reader, a moon phase thingy. I hope you get some use out of it.

Sunday, October 09, 2005

Babylon 5

http://www.oinc.net/B5/Enc/
http://www.b5tech.com/
http://www.midwinter.com/lurk/lurker.html

This show is just gosh darn good.

Got to love it.

Excellent Characters, Excellent Plot, Excellent CG (for the time), Excellent Writing, and of course Ivanova.

May I suggest you buy yourself a copy on DVD or perhaps get it by other means*.

*Check the link you stupid moron.

Thursday, October 06, 2005

Without change the end draws closer....

For those who say that change is unnecessary or unwanted. You are wrong. It is needed and must not be stopped. I implore you to seek out change and embrace it. Don't let the worse befall you and yours.

Saturday, October 01, 2005

Different Player's, but the Play remains the same....or does it?

Maybe in the grand scheme of things all that matters is that we know something has happened. Not knowing why it happened, but just that it has happened. True, it may be difficult to understand fate or the lack there of, but in the end will it matter. What we do today, someone else will do tomorrow. We they did yesterday, we did today. Do you see what I am getting at. The question of our existence is growing greater and greater.

And I Find It Kind Of Funny I Find It Kind Of Sad

I don't know what it is, but I really like this song. So damn good. Thanks to allofmp3.com I found and listened to the original 1982 Version by Tears for Fears. Very Very Different it is.

Also, spelling errors will pop up all over this blog, so quit complaining damnit...

WHY THE HELL WOULD I EVER SPELL CHECK, I hate you people, live with it.....

Your Benevolent and Omnipotent Leader,

ME

Friday, September 30, 2005

A thought

Do not attempt to drown your sorrows.

For they can swim.

Do not attempt to hide your fears.

For they are known.

Do not attempt to be that which you are not.

For you are your own keeper.

Do not hesitate.

For unnecertanity is natural.

End at the beginning, Begin at the end

Thank You! I genuinely mean that. Thank you for everything.

I am writing this in AbiWord because at present blogger does not appear to be up. I will hopefully have it in blogger by the time you read this, because if you can read this while I am typing it in AbiWord then my security flaws are greater than even could've believed.

I am in a quasi mood of sadness, hate, joy and fear all at once. My WinAmp playlist is currently comprised of Gary Jules' version of "Mad World", Green Day's "Good Riddance (Time Of Your Life)", Semisonic's "Closing Time" and the Eagle's "Desperado". So tell me would you agree with my assertion that I am currently not sure what feelings I am experiencing?

Each song has its own uniqueness to it. Each song speaks from a different point of view about a different subject, but they all share something. Each song is equally good, imho. Of course of the four Desperado is my favorite. Desperado is the song you let a suicidal person listen to right before they jump, pull the trigger, kick the bucket/chair, etc., and if they really mean it you'll know by how they react to the song. To be honest I don't really know what I am talking about, but I obviously wrote for one reason or another.

I would love to have a psychologist or psychiatrist or someone who understand the human mind better than I a simple lay person. It is amazing isn't it. We posses what we assume is one of the greatest mental abilities of any other creature on this planet and yet we know next to nothing about it really. What does that say about us really? Well for one we are not omnipotent as some would like to believe they are. Also we are not all geniuses, you know just because you know and or understand something doesn't make you smart. Intelligence comes from the application of dormant knowledge. That is to say, I for example know, oh, so many things, but it is only dormant knowledge. It means nothing in the grand scheme of things. If I can actively use and apply that knowledge towards a greater good, that would show true intelligence. Man can know and understand all "Godly" facts, but if man does not use that knowledge to the best of his ability he is no smarter than a programmed automaton who only recalls and delivers the information IT has been programmed to know and possibly understand.

Well by now the songs are on their second play through thanks to the repeat all button. Okay, now here is something I have been trying to figure out for a while. Why are so many people blinded wholly by their faith. It is true that I ask this as cynic in regards to understanding their point of view, but I just don't understand. How can any one person have faith in something that can not be proved definitively. And yes I also realize that gravity is not a definitive thing either, being a theory and all, but people do believe it exists. However, in that instance it is declared a THEORY, where as some people take their religion as undeniable fact. I mean, my God, why? Funny, huh? But, seriously why do people have such strong convictions in these things? I'll be honest sometimes I wish I had faith in something, so I could at least partially understand the devoutly religious. That unfortunately won't happen. I have, as some of you may know, lost all faith in my fellow man. Now, as a precursor, this only due to the fact that I can completely question existence and not get an answer and this is no ones fault. Perhaps humanity was never supposed to understand itself. Perhaps even trying to do so is folly. Maybe we should all continue to live our sheltered existence alone on this planet until a time comes when we can actively understand the truth of the situation.

Sometimes I wonder if I am on a drug that I am not aware of, I just went back and read what I wrote, but I get nothing from it. I find it to be pointless and with out cause. I don't know, maybe I am bi-polar or something. Maybe, I shouldn't question myself. Perhaps there is a reason for all this that just doesn't make sense right now.

At least one thing can always be certain for the time we have here, everyday starts new and ends new. The same thing never really happens again. Sure there are similarities, but nothing is ever the same. That is one thing we can always count on, not that this is necessarily a good thing or a bad thing, but we can count on it. Now to say that that is pure randomness or fate is not up to me. I am not controller or caretaker of the Universe or the earth for that matter. I can't even say for certain that any of this is real. That we aren't merely the creation of something or someone in a temporal plane of existence unknown to us. The world is an odd place. Yes, there are cycles and their repetition, but each cycle and repetition is imperfect or flawed when compared to its predecessor. This is the beauty of life. There is no pattern, but their is no randomness. Everything happens for a distinct reason and has a distinct cause, but nothing happens by fate and their are millions upon millions of probabilities for every action to prove that. As an example I submit to you this, when you wake up in the morning you are presented with choices, most of them unknown to you, but they are. You can proceed with your day, as though it were any other day, or you could go to sleep, or you could down the hall and beat the neighbor who plays the loud music, or you could jump out of a window, or you could do any one of a myriad of things. That is, absolutely nothing is set in stone. Ever. Even the stuff that is set in stone can be lost forever.

I don't know where I was going with this. I hope you don't mind the fact that I went on so long. I would like to take the time to thank my readers for reading this blog. I don't know who you are, but I would like it a lot if you said hi. Either with a comment, you can post anonymously, or with an instant message or even by e-mail. I am always here to listen to criticism, I only ask you keep it clean or I will have to delete it.

And now, because I did listen to them, here are the four songs:

Mad World - Gary Jules

All around me are familiar faces

Worn out places

Worn out faces

Bright and early for the daily races

Going no where

Going no where

Their tears are filling up their glasses

No expression

No expression

Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow

No tomorrow

No tomorrow

And I find it kind of funny

I find it kind of sad

The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had

I find it hard to tell you

I find it hard to take

When people run in circles its a very very

Mad world

Mad world

Children waiting for the day they feel good

Happy birthday

Happy birthday

And I feel the way that every child should

Sit and listen

Sit and listen

Went to school and I was very nervous

No one knew me

No one knew me

Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson

Look right through me

Look right through me

And I find it kind of funny

I find it kind of sad

The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had

I find it hard to tell you

I find it hard to take

When people run in circles its a very very

Mad world

Mad world

Enlarging your world

Mad world

"Good Riddance (Time Of Your Life)"

Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road

Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go

So make the best of this test, and don't ask why

It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.

I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind

Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time

Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial

For what it's worth it was worth all the while

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.

I hope you had the time of your life.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.

I hope you had the time of your life.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.

I hope you had the time of your life.

Closing time - time for you to go out, go out into the world.

Closing time - turn the lights up over every boy and every girl.

Closing time - one last call for alcohol, so finish your whiskey or beer.

Closing time - you don't have to go home but you can't stay here.

I know who I want to take me home.

I know who I want to take me home.

I know who I want to take me home.

Take me home...

Closing time - time for you to go back to the places you will be from.

Closing time - this room won't be open 'til your brothers or you sisters

come.

So gather up your jackets, and move it to the exits - I hope you have found

a

friend.

Closing time - every new beginning comes from some other beginning'send.

Yeah, I know who I want to take me home.

I know who I want to take me home.

I know who I want to take me home.

Take me home...

Closing time - time for you to go back to the places you will be from...

I know who I want to take me home.

I know who I want to take me home.

I know who I want to take me home.

Take me home...

Closing time - every new beginning comes from some other beginning'send...

"Desperado"

Desperado, why don't you come to your senses?

You been out ridin' fences for so long now

Oh, you're a hard one

I know that you got your reasons

These things that are pleasin' you

Can hurt you somehow

Don't you draw the queen of diamonds, boy

She'll beat you if she's able

You know the queen of hearts is always your best bet

Now it seems to me, some fine things

Have been laid upon your table

But you only want the ones that you can't get

Desperado, oh, you ain't gettin' no younger

Your pain and your hunger, they're drivin' you home

And freedom, oh freedom well, that's just some people talkin'

Your prison is walking through this world all alone

Don't your feet get cold in the winter time?

The sky won't snow and the sun won't shine

It's hard to tell the night time from the day

You're losin' all your highs and lows

Ain't it funny how the feeling goes away?

Desperado, why don't you come to your senses?

Come down from your fences, open the gate

It may be rainin', but there's a rainbow above you

You better let somebody love you, before it's too late

I don't have a clue

I'm so very tired. It's almost all the time now.